IT COMES IN THREEs

Numbah One aka Bukang-Liwayway

I really had a crush on you because you are cute. I never regret getting to know you and being closer to you than I thought I would be. Maybe it wasn’t really meant to be. Like I’ve said, “walang chemistry”. More than sheer feelings, I believe that pressures from the org and our common friends played a major role. But it was really nice to know a mysterious and deep-thinking guy like you. You deserve to be happy.

Numbah Two aka PPP

You were just a dream that I once knew. English 30 was a blessing in disguise. Kapampangan diay ka. Sa pagsugod nato og text, kumosta naman to?! Pareha diay tag gibati sa usag usa. Pero nagdesisyon ka – acad mode. Kaisog nimo, pero para nako tama ang plano nimo. Salamat. Pag ayoayo kung usa man galing imong makab-ot. Unta malipayun ka kung unsa man ang madawat nimo karun.

Numbah Three aka Pablo Pabling

Sie bezaubern. Eine typischer Junge folgene Tür. Sie sind ein Flirt und also sind ich. Das ist,waruw wir nah wurden Ich wirklich verstehe nicht, was wir hatten, oder wenn wir sogar etwas hatten. Jede Weise, danke ich Ihnen. Danke für das Bilden mich des Gefüls gut. Es sein rüber jetzt. Das Leben geht weiter. Lassen Sif uns anbewegen. Gutes Glück auf allen Ihnen Bemähungen. Ich hoffe, daβ Sie glücklich sind. Ich bin für Sie glücklich. Auf Wiedersehen.

Kris Aquino once said that everything comes in threes. Hmmm… totoo kaya un? Oh well, whatever.

Numbah Four aka Where the hell have you been?

I’m not expecting you to be the ONE. Hello? Numbah FOUR ka nga eh, so you can’t be the ONE. Haha. I’ll be waiting for you. Come out, come out wherever you are.

Nasaan ka?

Mahahanap din kita…

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Dakal salamat kang Divine ampong Lubert…

TANGA

Naranasan mo na bang mag-mukhang tanga?

Yung tipong, akala mo ay okay ang lahat, pero hindi pala.
Akala mo tama ang ginagawa mo, pero mali pala.
Akala mo totoo siya, pero peke pala.
Akala mo alam mo ang lahat, pero wala ka palang kamalay-malay.
Akala mo kontrolado mo ang mga nangyayari, pero ikaw pala ang kinokontrol.
Akala mo kakampi siya, pero kalaban pala.

O kaya nama’y ginawa mo na bang tanga ang isang tao?

Yung tipong, may alam ka, pero hindi ka nagsasalita.
Akala niya kilala ka niya, pero hindi pala.
Akala niya tapat ka sa kanya, pero traydor ka pala.
Akala niya wala kang alam, pero alam mo ang lahat.
Akala niya kaibigan ka, pero kaaway pala.

Haaaay.. wala lang.. I’ve experienced both eh.. hehe.. Masakit mag-mukhang tanga. At mahirap namang gawing tanga ang isang tao lalo na kung wala kang masamang intensyon.

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uy, wala akong pinapatamaan dito ha.. pero syempre, hindi ‘to out of the blue.. it’s definitely something.. hehe.. sa mga paranoid diyan, wag kayong mag-isip ng kung anu-ano ha.. hehe.. wala lang akong magawa..

HAAAY NAKA-GRADUATE DIN!

wahaha... naka-graduate din.. huhuhu.. mamimiss ko ang UP!

ARTSY FARTSY

TXTM8S

Hi.. Wala lang.. Gagayahin ko lang yung mga iba na naglalagay ng text messages sa blog.. Hehe..

Some texts have been Tagalized for the benefit of the non-Kapampangans, para na rin hindi mahirapan ang mga nagmamarunong mag-Kapampangan.. Haha..

“Ayun, sinasaktan namin ang isa’t isa.. Tumawag siya minsan ng 2 am pero halos hindi siya makapagsalita.. Sabi niya namimiss daw niya ko.. Sabi ko naman ang lakas ng loob niya, tama na ang laro.. Magseryoso na siya dapat.. Ayun, feeling ko nahurt siya.. Thursday last week nagtext kame pero medyo cold na kami.. Nung Sunday nagsend siya ng quote, hindi ako nagreply.. Pero namimiss ko na siya ng sobra!”

- ganon? Haay, hindi ko alam sa inyo.. Sige pagsasabihan ko siya.. haha.. Pero that was a brave thing for you to do ah.. Nagawa ko na rin yata yan.. yata.. haha..

"Tama ka diyan ngot. At masaya talaga ako na naka-jive ko kayo. Kahit maikling panahon lang tayong nagkakilala. At kahit sobrang makulit ka, labs kita. (One time ko lang to sasabihin). Wahaha.”

- haha.. alam ko namang hanggang kaibigan lang ako.. wahaha..

“I expected better judgment from him, cos I know he knows what to do after what has happened before.. And one more thing, affected ako kapag may sinasabi silang masama about sa kanya like ‘yiih, ang yabang niya, ang landi niya, blah blah’.. Ako naman pinagtatanggol ko siya, ‘hinde, okay siya.. ganito lang yan,,, blah blah’.. Ako nga mismo ayaw ko siya dati diba? And now it seems people were right, and that sucks!”

-haaay.. Life is really unpredictable.. oh well, I’m not in a position to preach about trust and friendship, hehe.. Basta, life is what you make it! It’s your call..

“Bakit hindi ka na nagtext? ;-( pinabayaan mo kong nag-isip buong gabi kung ano ginawa ko sayo..”

- wushu.. nag-isip ka nga ba buong gabi?

“I just realized how stupid I was to even cry over *toot*. Holler I’m too pretty for him.”

- hay naku.. mahahanap mo rin ang para sa yo..

“Alangan namang mag-give in na naman ako sa ka-sweetan niya knowing na sila na naman ng GF nya.. Kung maniniwala ako, masyado nakong tanga diba?”

- parang naririnig ko ang sarili ko ah.. haha.. kaya mo yan! Konting tiis.. mahirap pero it’s for your own good..

“Ngot, hindi lang ikaw ang issue. Kung iisipin mo, minor issue lang ang sa yo. Meron bigger at mas importanteng issue na implied. Sa aming dalawa na lang yun, at wala ka ng kinalaman dun.”

- haha.. this is so funny.. Wala namang issue diba? Haha..

“Bigyan mo naman ako ng words of wisdom!Ü para makapag move-on nako.”

- haha.. okay ka lang? Sa kin ka pa nagtanong!

“Epal ako, mr. Know-it-all, mahilig makialam sa mga buhay buhay. Ano pa ba? So, sori for that. I thot I was just helping out. So from now on, bahala na kayo. Buhay niyo yan eh. Gusto niyong maglokohan? Fine, be my guest. Wala namang mawawala sa kin kung pababayaan ko kayo eh.”

- haha.. ang sarap balikan ng nakaraan.. tingnan mo nga naman noh.. parang kelan lang.. haha..

“Na-wrongsend ako sa kanya.. Eto pakisabi sa kanya na humihingi ako ng pasensya sa gulo.. Pati na rin sa yo.. Hayaan mo na ang previous text message ko..”

-yihee.. ayaw mo ba ulit pasabi yan ngayon sa kanya? haha..

“oo naman. Ganun kta kamahal. Nga pla, di q nabilang eh. Pero ang dami mo ng mura sa kin. Salamat. Uy cge na. Tatakas na tlga q.”

- eh di sana minura mo na din ako.. lumaban ka naman! Ah oo nga pla, mahal mo pala ako kaya hindi mo magawa un.. Haha..

“Hi! Musta?” or “Ui,musta?”

- yan… yan ang mga tipong nagbibigay sa kin ng panandaliang kahibangan.. In English, 5-minute emotional highs.. Wahaha..

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haha.. guess who?! If u think isa kayo sa mga nagsabi nyan sa kin, mag comment na! Wag ka nag mahiya.. cge lang.. haha..

Lyrics Galore.. Sing with me y'all..

"I'm alive, I'm in love, you complete me. And I've never been here before."

- Unbelievable, Craig David

"Shame on you if you fooled me once, shame on me if you fooled me twice. You've been a pretty hard case to crack. I should've known better but I didn't and I can't go back."

- Life Goes On, LeAnn Rimes

"In this world there's real and make-believe. This seems real to me."

- Let Me Go, 3 Doors Down

"I'm sinking slowly, so hurry hold me. Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on."

- All You Wanted, Michelle Branch

"It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right. I hope you had the time of your life."

- Time of your life (Good Riddance), Green Day

"I was damaged by the fall. Got the wind knocked out of me. To be standing here at all, I must be invincible."

- Invincible, Christian Bautista

"I never thought to ask you. I always thought you knew. It was never my intention to question you."

- Unforgetful You, Jars of Clay

"There's gotta be more to life than chasing out every temporary high to satisfy me."

- More to Life, Stacie Orrico

"I was wrong when I hurt you. Did you have to hurt me too?"

- The Past, revived by Jed Madela

"I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness. And all of the real people are not real at all."

- Try, Nelly Furtado

“Coz I want nothing more than to sit outside your door and listen to you breathing. That’s where I wanna be.”

- Breathing, Lifehouse

“It’s not always rainbows and butterflies, it’s compromise that moves us along.”

- She Will Be Loved, Maroon 5

“Where is the man of my dreams? I’ll wait forever, how silly it seems.”

- Where are you?, Natalie feat. Justin Roman

"Underneath the guise of smile gradually I'm dying inside..."

- Breakdown, Mariah Carey feat. Bone Thugs ‘N Harmony

“You didn’t know that NO don’t mean YES, it means NO.”

- Beep, Pussycat Dolls

GREENER THAN GREEN

Haaay.. Wala lang.. It’s nice to see you again. Kahit puro tawanan at gaguhan lang tayo. Nakakatuwa lang. Buti na lang at hindi tayo nanood ng movie kasi mas nakapag-usap tayo sa Panaderong Pranses.. Haha.. Kumusta naman ang mga issues? Haha.. Hmm.. Parang hindi na yata tayo magkikita ulit ah.. Next time, sa SM Pampanga naman.. Para maiba.. Lagi na lang diyan eh.. Tsaka unfair sa amin.. Haha..

To Joseph: Itext mo na kasi.. Haha.. Muntik mo na kaming maloko ah.. Nalungkot pa man din ako for you.. Buti na lang pakialamera ako.. Haha.. Mamimiss ko ang mga “points” mo.. Haha.. Salamat sa lahat lahat.. Alam ko namang labs mo ko eh.. Wag kang masyadong mag-isip tungkol sa mga bagay-bagay ha.. The truth will set us free.. Haha.. Mag concentrate ka na lang sa Law.. Pro bono ha?!

To Ashley: I’m giving you the privilege na magsabi sa kanya.. Haha.. Wag kang masyadong defensive! Wag ka na lang mag explain kung hindi consistent ang mga sasabihin mo, lalo ka lang naiipit eh.. Haha.. Aminin na kasi.. Mag-reply ka na agad sa mga tao ha, wag mo ng hintayin ang 24 hours.. Hehe.. Keep on calling!

To Darrel: Alam mo na ba ang spelling ng TRUST? Haha.. Mag tag ka naman diyan sa tagboard ko.. At sana naman alisin mo na ang pagka-offline ko! May pang-asar na ulit ako sa yo.. Pero next time na lang.. Wala ako sa mood makipag-away ngayon eh.. Mag unlimited ka na kasi sa Globe..

To Aileen: Hmmm… Wala naman akong masasabi sa yo eh.. Haha.. Tsaka hindi mo naman mababasa to.. Haha.. Job hunting na tayo ha!

To Shane: Too bad hindi ka nakasama.. Hehe.. Marami kang na-miss.. Haha.. See you soon!

Sheeet! Two days na lang before graduation! Huhu.. Goodbye college life.. Goodbye UP.. Welcome to the real world.. Haaaay..

WHÖLLY WěăK

April 9-15, 2006

Palm Sunday

Wala lang. I don’t remember doing something fruitful this day. Malamang it was just a typical vacation day for me. Late ng gising. Kain lunch. Nood TV. Yun lang. Oh yeah I remember watching S-FILES and THE BUZZ. Chismis galore. Ayun, 9 months na palang married sina Kris at James. Hehe. Then at night, I went online – checked my mail, friendster, forums, my blog, others’ blogs and YM. Text galore din pala ako this day dahil malapit ng mag expire ang Globe Unlimitxt ko.

Holy Monday

Haha. Wala rin akong nagawang matino and “holy” this day. The usual routine – gising-kain-ligo-nood TV-tulog. But this time, I did some form of self-restraint – no Internet, no texts, no telephone. Buti na lang at nag expire na ang Unlimitxt ko. Hehe. Pero nakakainis dahil until now hindi pa rin ako makapag-register. Haaay… kaya tuloy puro miscol lang ako sa mga friends. Huhu.

Holy Tuesday

Haaay… another boring day! I watched “The Waiting Room” – a Holy Week presentation of GMA7. In fairness, it was good naman. It’s about having second chances in life. Nakapag-contemplate tuloy ako sa buhay ko. (Yaaak may ganon?!) Hehe. Ayun, other than that, it’s the same old routine pa rin. Ay I forgot pala, I am taking BIOFITEA (green tea chorva) these past 2 weeks, kaya kasama rin sa daily routine ko ang lose bowel movement. Minsan nga middle of the night siya nananawagan eh, minsan naman very early in the morning. Oh well, okay lang, nakakapayat naman eh. Harhar. Medyo maaga ako natulog dahil nga wala naman ako gagawin. Nagpa-miscol muna ko sa mga friends ko para sabihin (impliedly) na “gudnyt”. May isang masugid naman na magrereply ng “güdnyt ngot!”. Thanks Chris, I really appreciate that. Hehe.

Holy Wednesday

Guess what?! Oh yes, another boring day! Haaay… as in wala akong magawa aside from my daily activities. Minsan nga bigla na lang akong nakakatulog eh. It’s only my brother (Vlad), my neice (Mae) and me sa house kaya super wala kaming magawa.

Maundy Thursday

It’s a holiday. Yippee! Aalis kame! We went to our relatives at San Luis. Ayun, nangumusta lang. Kumain. Bumisita sa mga tito, tita, lola at mga pinsan. It was nice to see them kasi seldom lang talaga kami umuuwi dun (pag may occasion lang – fiesta, Christmas, birthday, Halloween at Holy Week). 10am to 6pm kaming wala sa bahay. O diba? Ice breaker sa aking napaka-boring na Holy Week. Hehe.

Good Friday

It’s Shelah’s 21^st birthday (my friend back in high school). Wala lang. This day is a bit exciting for me because we’re going swimming! Yippee! Pero dito lang sa tabi-tabi, a nearby resort na itago na lang natin sa pangalang Burak-Ay! Hehe. We thought there would be fewer people because it’s Good Friday. But no, marami pa rin. Kainis. Hindi man lang ako nakapag-swim nang maayos. I wasn’t able to fully utilize the swimming lessons I’ve learned last summer. Oh well, that’s life. Huhu. Ayun, we went home at around 8 pm. Nothing much happened after that.

Black Saturday

I thought it would be another boring day because I don’t have any concrete plan of action. But surprisingly, Tel, Kring and I went to SM. Ipapa-reformat namin yung laptop ni Sha. Na-virus kasi namin ni Jade. Hehe. Ayun, around 10:30 am ako sinundo tapos around 11 am nasa SM na kami. At kamusta naman ang parking? Siguro 30 minutes kaming nag-roadtrip sa parking lot. Haha. Tapos, we went to Compex para nga ipagawa yung laptop. Luckily, kapit-bahay pala nina Tel yung isang technician/computer chorva dun, and he was willing to do the job for FREE. Pero syempre bibigyan pa rin namin siya kahit magkano lang. Eh 3 pm pa daw makukuha, so we ate lunch muna at Greenwich and Tel bought a blouse sa Department Store. After that, mga past 1 pm, we went to St. Jude – straight to Kuya Rex’s house, may gagawin kasing video presentation si Tel. So yun, until around 6 pm kami dun. Imagine that?! Hehe. Todo bonding nga kami ni Kuya Rex eh. Ang sarap mag-reminisce ng mga memories. Haha. Super sweet nga kame eh. Hahaha. Baka nga daw kami ang magkatuluyan in the end. Hahaha. He even created a new blog for me sa blogspot (http://ngotty.blogspot.com). Hehe. Wala lang. Nakakatuwa lang. Para kaming sira ulo. Kasi parang last week lang eh gusto niya kong patayin. Haha. Tapos ngayon super chummy kame?! Kamusta naman yun? Hahaha. Ginawan niya pa kame ng ice-cold coffee na mala-Starbucks ang lasa. Hehe. How sweet noh? Ayun, nang matapos na nina Tel and Kring ang ginagawa nila, umalis na kami, it’s getting late na rin eh. Oh well, magkikita kami ulit ni Kuya Rex bukas, may kainan kasi kina Mike eh. Haha. Hmmm… We’re getting too close na ha. Harhar.

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Ayun, nga pala, the purpose of this post is to assess my Holy Week. For me, I didn’t spend it in a special way. Parang wala lang. The title says it all. It’s been Wholly Weak. Haaaay.. sorry Lord. Hehe.

PLUGGiNG

hi..
well.. i really don't have something to say for now..
nothing's been going on with my life these past few days..
oh shet..
wala akong magawa..
im super duper bored..
haaay..
buti naman you have time pa to read this nonsense blog? hehe..
anyways, if you have time, kindly visit my friend's blog:

http://shanpotpot.blogs.friendster.com/my_blog/2005/09/but_karma_must_.html

i can relate to his post entitled "But karma must be starting to take its toll on me"
so you might want to check it out.. hehe..

you could also try reading the rest of his posts..
he's a good writer, madrama yan.. hehe..
gays have always been really good in writing..
wala lang, almost all my gay friends are.. hehe..
well, sige, for shany's sake, hindi daw siya gay,
bisexual daw.. ok pagbigyan.. hehe.. love u shany!

hi shany, ok lang naman syo na i-plug ko blog mo diba?
i mean you don't care naman right?

hehe..

so there..
nothing mushy for now..
silent mode eh.. hehe..

AHMIRA

Ahmira was my high school classmate at SSA. Ngayon ko lang siya naka-text, around October lang yata. Thanks to Globe Unlimitxt. I really appreciate her text messages. Most of them are very mushy and emotional. Sometimes nga they come just in time. If I were to write all her text messages here, aba, eh baka maubusan ng webspace. Hehe. So far, the one below is the most touching text message I received from her.

Ahmira

25-03-06 10:28:42 pm

Giving up?

Yes, I guess I am.

It’s not that I don’t care anymore.

I just can’t continue loving you and at the same time hurting myself.

I’m just too stupid to even fall for you.. too tired.. too wounded.

Giving up?

Yes, I think I should.

Coz there’s just no difference at all.

I’ve wasted my time and disregarded my health for your little time.

There’s just nothing left in me except for my pride, now that I am almost done with you and with this absurdity.

Giving up?

Suppose I do?

Would you even bother stopping me?

Guess “No”.

I’ve waited all this time for you to realize that I’m all you ever needed, yet you closed every chance and possibility.

Now I’m thinking what’s with her that you don’t see in me?

If I give up, then I’ll be free from you but definitely not away from your shadows.

Too bad but I have to bear the pain by myself.

I’m giving up what is still left unsaid.

APRIL FOOL'S DAY

Hello Philippines
and Hello World!

Kumusta naman ang April Fool’s Day niyo?

Ako? Haay grabe..

FOOLED TO THE MAX!

April 1, 2006

Around 9:30 am

Text message: Guys, Bogart met an accident, dead on arrival. Pls pray 4 him.

*I’m not sure about the exact words but it has the same thought.

It so happened that three of my close friends and I were together.

We were all shocked and didn’t know what to do.

Questions came pouring in like “Bogart who?”, “Is he really dead?” or “How did it happen?”.

Shit! As in malaking SHIT!

This can’t be happening I told myself.

I called his buddy Gustavo. “Hello”, he answered.

“O, what happened to Bogart?”

“Huh? What?”

“Fulgencio texted everyone that he met an accident and was dead on arrival.”

“Whaaat? *&%$! %#&%@##&. Sige. Bye.”

So there, we’re still clueless about what happened.

Next on my list of “things to do”: call Bogart.

Ring. Ring. Ring.

Shit. He’s not answering.

Finally, after a couple of rings, somebody answered. “Hello, o what?”

“Bogart?”

“O?”

At the back of my mind, I wanted to ask, “You’re alive?”

But all I said was, “Oh okay, wala lang. Sige. Bye.”

So there, we texted Fulgencio and asked him what really happened.

He replied, “It’s not true. Joke lang. Happy April Fool’s Day!”

*Again, I’m not sure about the exact words.

Shit. As in BULLSHIT! It’s the shittiest thing that anyone can do!

Oh well, maybe I’m just over reacting.

But no… It wasn’t really a nice joke. Things like that should not be the object of jokes.

It’s not funny. So not funny.

I hope everyone else who were “fooled” share the same sentiments as mine.

To Fulgencio: You know how I felt naman diba? I just didn’t really expect it from you. You said you are willing to gladly face the consequences of your action, right? Well, good luck.

*Now I’m sure that these were the exact words.

To Gustavo: Haaay… Damn… Good thing we didn’t suffer a heart attack! Thanks for your concern.

To Bogart: I’m glad you’re alive. What were you thinking?! That was not a nice joke!

To all those who were “fooled”: Hello. Kumusta naman kayo jan?