~' Nice and Ngotty '~

Maybe Not

2010-08-28T22:22:00.002+08:00

Now that I am back in business, I don't think I can maintain blogging. I'll try, of course. Whenever I have the time... whenever I am inspired... whenever I have the urge to share and write down my thoughts. Until then, goodbye for now.

In Between

2010-06-25T13:46:00.001+08:00

When we were at my uncle's wake, my brother taught us a new card game called “in between”. Each player is given two cards at the beginning of the game. Then another card will be given to a player, but you should first decide whether to CALL or FOLD. CALL meaning you have a pretty good feeling that the new card given to you will fall “in between” the first two cards. FOLD meaning otherwise. Example, you have a FIVE and a QUEEN, you'll probably think that the new card will fall in between these two. If the new card given to you is, let's say a NINE, then you win. It's that easy. But if you have two identical cards, the choices will be HIGHER or LOWER. If you were given two TENS, then you might probably choose LOWER, meaning the new card to be given to you will (hopefully) be lower than TEN.

At some point in our lives, we often thought that we have had our lowest moments... our most embarrassing situation... our ugliest look... our worst hair day... our unluckiest day.

Whatever you felt, seen, tasted, touched or heard, it will always be in between. At some point, there will always be someone out there who had a more embarrassing situation than the one you were in. If you think you're getting older because almost all your colleagues are younger than you, then just think of your older friends and relatives. Definitely, you will always be younger than them. If you think you had a bad day when your flight got canceled, then just thank God that you were not on the plane that crashed and got all of its passengers killed. If you think you're getting fat, then try watching THE BIGGEST LOSER. If you think you're not that smart, then just think of other people who can't or don't even have the capacity to read this. And you probably won't be reading this if you're not smart. Haha!

As of June 2010, the United States Census Bureau has estimated the human world population at 6,829,400,000. You are not alone.

On the other hand, we have also thought that we had our highest moments – nirvana, bliss, paradise, heaven, cloud nine or whatever you call it. But when you're happy, I guess you won't care much who's happier than you, right? Let's all be happy and don't forget to count your blessings.

Back to blogging?

2010-06-25T13:12:00.002+08:00

Since I don't have anything else to do, I should just probably blog.

Hello again BlogWorld!

Missed me? :D

NO LONGER CONNECTED

2009-07-23T12:30:00.003+08:00

I sent a farewell email to my corporate contacts last week.
Here are their replies (in chronological order):

Good luck Krystel in all of your endeavors!
~Sheila, Info-Alchemy Corporation

Ok. Thanks for the info, Krystel.
~Sheila, Philbest Canning Corporation

Ok, Thanks.
~Cynthia, Bureau of Internal Revenue

Dear Krystel, Thank you for the update. After SWS purchased SPSS, we still have concerns in the software that need to be addressed. Who do we follow it up with?
...
Ok, Krystel. So, where are you headed now? Good luck!
~Jay, Social Weather Stations

Thanks Krystel. We surely had great time with your hlp to make our Association a reliable partner of ACRE/SPSS Philippines. Do keep in touch always.
~Jerome, Philippine Statistical Association - GenSan

ay... how sad naman. anyway, thanks for assisting us on our SPSS concerns.
~Christian, World Vision

ok thanks krystel..
~Daisy, University of Southeastern Philippines

noted krystel! thanks for the info.good luck!
~Lori, Philippine Airlines

amp...that's sad...
you are the sunshine there :)
~Alfie, Philippine Statistical Association - GenSan

thank you for the info Krystel and good luck for whatever new move you intend to pursue. thanks too very much for helping us out here in CIM.
~Fidelis, Cebu Institute of Medicine

dear krystel,good am.naku why r you no longer connected to SPSS?sana much higher the salary is at mas prestigious yanbka magaasawa ka na , go go gothanks for the updateyou will be blessed because you are a very kindhearted person very accomodating.
~Sofia, Lyceum University of the Philippines - Batangas

Hi, Krystel!Thanks for the info! As for SPSS student ed., I asked my brother to purchase it (online) for me. I do hope it's coming my way soon :-/ :-)Please keep in touch!:-) ALIZA
~Aliza, UP College of Business Administration

this is to wish you good luck on your next endeavor . let me also extend my sincere thanks for all the help you have extended to Adamson. , regards ----- bing conde
~Belinda, Adamson University

Hi Kristel, We will miss you.
~Edwin, Adventist University of the Philippines

good day miss. Where are you connected now? Can I have your new cellnumber if theres any.
~Margarito, Southwestern University

Ms Krystel, Thank you for the information.
~Marie, Employees Compensation Commission

Thank you for the info.
~Aurora, Employees Compensation Commission

Good morning Kristel,Okay, your advisory is noted.Good Luck and more power!God bless!~Angelo, Holy Name University

Hi krystel, Long time no hear! Thanks for all the favors you've extended!
Wishing you success in your new endeavor.
Don't hesitate to call me or email me when
you have time to visit CEBU!
Ciao! God Bless!
~Melle, UP Cebu

Thank You Ms. Krystel for the information. It was very thoughtful of you to endorse us to Ms. Nolasco and Mr. Aga. We look forward to working with them for our future transactions.Regards, Agnes Sequino
~Agnes, University of San Jose Recoletos - Cebu

Through YM
Geepee, Bureau of Customs
Anna & Jay, Solvento Philippines

Through text
Gwen, University of Santo Tomas and PACE
Richard, CPL Philippines
Ed, Cebu

TO EVERYONE: Thank you for supporting me. Haha. Parang nanalong Best Actress Award noh. :)

You say JUMP! I say HOW HIGH?

2009-07-01T18:19:00.019+08:00

Here's a compilation of jump shots in different places. Enjoy!!!

Marina Azul, Sariaya, Quezon
June 1, 2007

Amarella Resort, Panglao Island, Bohol
August 2008

Black Beach, Coron, Palawan
April 18, 2009

Mt. Tapyas, Coron, Palawan
April 19, 2009

Subic Homes, Subic
April 25, 2009

Caramoan Island, Naga City
June 12, 2009

Fontana

A long time ago

Smile!

2009-06-29T18:00:00.007+08:00

Nice shot right? All smiles and no worries.

But there's something weird about this photo.

It was taken on the verge of a camera's dying battery.

Isn't that great?! Hehehe.

vitamin B

2009-03-31T17:01:00.001+08:00

The B vitamins are eight water-soluble vitamins that play important roles in cell metabolism. Historically, the B vitamins were once thought to be a single vitamin, referred to as vitamin B (much like how people refer to vitamin C or vitamin D). Later research showed that they are chemically distinct vitamins that often coexist in the same foods. Supplements containing all eight are generally referred to as a vitamin B complex. (Wikipedia)

My vitamin B is different.
...it burns calories
...it releases stress
...it gives me a chance to mingle with friends [and enemies, haha!]

I usually have it once a week... for two hours.

Equipment needed: Handy-dandy racket and shuttle cock

It’s a good exercise and a great hobby.

I love this game.

March 31 is the 90th day of the year in the Gregorian calendar.

It marks the end of the 1st quarter. Haaay.

Growing up

2009-03-17T07:26:00.004+08:00

Mae, my 8-year old niece, spends more time fixing her hair than doing her home work.
She still watches cartoons but is starting to watch teen flicks.
She puts on lip gloss, lip stick, blush-on and whatever she finds in my sister’s drawer [whenever it’s possible].
Funny how little kids nowadays act like grown-ups.
What’s even funnier is how grown-ups act like little kids, hahaha!

They say when you are in your adolescent years, you start to hate your parents.
And when you finally become an adult, you still hate them.
But time will come [and it’s coming soon] that you will become like your parents.

When that time comes, you will realize that they were right.
Well, not necessarily right. At least, they had a point.
It is so true that “papunta ka pa lang, pabalik na sila”.

But of course, you can always take a different path.
We now have cars, buses, MRT hahaha! Or you can walk if you want to burn those calories.

Life is not a one-way stream. It is a cycle. Going forward and going back. Meeting people. Meddling with people. Missing people.

When is growing up too soon? And when is it too late?
I am 23 years old now... going on 24 in a couple of months. Huhuhu.
Shall I be acting like an adult now? Matured might be the proper term.

Oh well, bottomline of the story... it is better to mingle with people from different walks of life, age range, race, gender, social status, and intellectual capacity (hahaha!).

IT IS TIME

2008-12-18T07:26:00.002+08:00

I have been working for two years now.
Imagine that.
A lot of things have happened.
Both good and bad.
From the exhilarating highs to the exasperating lows... and the petiks moments in between.
And now it is time...
Time to move on and find greater heights.
Time to go and leave this unhealthy environment.
Time to contemplate and realize what I have been missing out.
Time to change and discover a better "me".

"I cannot give you what you seek." ~Aragorn, The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King

TANGGAP KO NA

2008-10-15T06:56:00.002+08:00

Masakit. Pero okay lang. Kayong dalawa na nga siguro ang itinadhana ng Panginoon na magkasama habang buhay. Matagal na panahon ko ding pinangarap na sana ako na lang. Pero hindi. Hindi talaga. Kawawa naman ako.

Pero okay lang talaga. Kaya ko to. Hindi naman katapusan ng mundo. Sabi nga ng Smart, "There are many fish in the sea." Kaso lang Globe ako, pano ba yan?!

Haaay. Okay lang talaga ako, promise. Di ka naman kagwapuhan eh. Hahaha... bitter!

Pero aminin mo... crush mo ako dati. Hahaha! (Hihirit pa eh.)

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH

2008-10-13T07:32:00.001+08:00

Once is enough. Twice is too much. Thrice is the boundary. Hahaha!

GREEN IS THE NEW PINK

2008-09-26T07:16:00.005+08:00

Yes, it's official.

My new favorite color is GREEN! (Clap clap clap!)

I have several green blouses and shirts.
Got two green bags.
Green accessories.
My cellphone case is green.
My PSP is green.
My hairbrush has a touch of green.

...and the list will grow...

HAPPY GREEN DAY!

WHAT YOU DON'T KNOW WON'T HURT YOU

2008-09-17T07:25:00.004+08:00

True.

But when you are aware that you don't know something, wouldn't that hurt too?

When things go wrong, when things fall apart, when things become fucked up, the best way to do is to keep your mouth shut. If you don't have anything good to say about a person, keep it to yourself. Or at least, you can go straight to that person and say it to his/her face. Save the effort of telling everyone else. Right? Right. Well, I understand how things got this way --- over reaction. Hahaha.

Sorry for whatever you thought I did. Sorry, it came to this point. Sorry, your emotions consumed you. Sorry, you were too intelligent to assume many things. Sorry, I had to write this. It's the only way I can release the tension.

Oh well, this is crazy.

One day, some day, I hope you'll be sorry too.

TARFU.

CHISMISCOMMUNICATION

2008-09-11T07:18:00.002+08:00

Communication is the process of conveying information from a sender to a receiver with the use of a medium in which the communicated information is understood the same way by both sender and receiver. (Wikipedia)

Each and every one of us has a unique way of communicating with others. Be it verbally or in written medium. A person's communication skills are influenced by so many things - culture, education, religion, media, family, friends, even technology, and sooo much more.

(Okay, I’ll cut the crap and go straight to the point.)

At one point, you have been a victim of miscommunication (or too much communication, or lack of communication). And at another point, you have been involved (not to mention, have been a major player) in that miscommunication thing. Hehe.

A simple casual comment of one person may be received as a brutal complaint by another, or a discriminatory statement to another, or a prejudiced criticism to another, and the list goes on.
And you’ll be surprised by the different versions one simple Jack & Jill story may have.

So how do we avoid this dilemma? Well, we cannot. It’s part of everyday living. Chismis is the new cigarette. It warms you up. And when one stick is over, you simply cannot stop. Oh man, you’re gonna come back for more. Trust me.

Not being able to avoid this doesn’t necessarily mean that we cannot manage it. Talk. Discuss. Argue. Reason out. Face to face.

Round 1 (ting!).

I am ready.

Haaay TARFU!

Kayumanggi

2008-06-11T07:25:00.003+08:00

After three consecutive weeks of swimming without sunblock, here I am - Kayumanggi... and loving it. Ampanget. Haha!
Pero okay naman, para maiba naman. Try something new sabi nga nila. Oh well, sandali lang naman to. It'll last for a couple of weeks. One month at the most.
Hay. Parang lagi akong madumi. Haha. Ganito pala ang feeling ng mga not-so-fair skinned. Hehe.
Hindi nako maglalagay ng pic. Maitim talaga eh. Haha. Just imagine. :)

It's all coming back to me now.

2008-05-28T12:59:00.003+08:00

Karma has a funny way of making me realize that I have been a bad girl these past few years.
Well, not really BAD bad. But, bad in such a way that I'm just being my plain old self - nice and naughty. Harhar!

Have you experienced meeting someone whose personality is similar to yours?
Not just similar. Exactly the same.
It's just annoying. I don't know how.
Maybe it's because of the fact that there is someone out there who has the same "likes" that you have, the same "banat" lines, the same "trips".

Well how cool is that?
Not really. Not funny.

I don't really know.

I think I'm starting to hate myself. Hahaha.
That sucks.

Mabuhay!

2008-05-27T12:45:00.001+08:00

Haller!
I'll try to write something cheesy soon. :)

MAROON 5! I WAS THERE!

2008-03-11T07:46:00.006+08:00

Yes, I made it!
I was able to watch Maroon 5 live! Woohoo!
I am just so happeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
I would like to thank my dear officemate for the Upper Box A tickets!
Maygad, Adam Levine is hot hot hot!!!

Maroon 5 fired up the stage at around 9pm with "If I Never See Your Face Again" from their latest album "It Won't Be Soon Before Long". Temperature starts to rise.

I so love him. Please marry me. :) Pretty please.

MAROON 5 WILL BE HERE BUT I WON'T BE THERE.

2008-03-04T07:32:00.004+08:00

Huhuhu... Maroon 5 will have their first concert here in the Philippines and I won't be there! Poor me. Ang mahal naman kasi grabe! Gen Ad pa lang, P1,500 na! Kumusta naman diba? Ni album nga nila hindi ko binili, concert pa na pagkamahal-mahal??? Hahaha.. Actually, I am willing to watch, kahit sa Upper Box B pa na almost P 4,000. The thing is, wala naman ako kasama. Alangan namang ako mag isa dun, singing to the tune of "She will be loved" and the others. Hehe. Haaay.... Bukas na yon. Wala na talagang pag-asa. Poor me.

O davah? Pagkatagal-tagal kong hindi nag update ng blog, kumusta naman.

TRIP TO TAIPEI

2008-02-25T07:24:00.001+08:00

February 21 - 24, 2008
SPSS Asia-Pacific Q1 Meeting
Agora Garden Hotel
No. 68 Sungkao Road, Taipei, Taiwan 110, Replublic of China

Taipei is a 101-floor landmark skyscraper located in Taipei, Taiwan. The building, designed by C.Y. Lee & Partners and constructed by KTRT Joint Venture, is the world's tallest completed skyscraper. Taipei 101 received the Emporis Skyscraper Award in 2004. It has been hailed as one of the Seven New Wonders of the World (Newsweek magazine, 2006) and Seven Wonders of Engineering (Discovery Channel, 2005). The building serves as an icon of Taipei and Taiwan as a whole. (Wikipedia)

The Pegasus Garden. The great view from my room. (8th floor)

The famous Night Market. Similar to Divi in the Philippines. You can find almost everything you need at low low prices. Shoes. Clothes. Bags. Toys. Food!

An exhausting day after shopping. Haha! My boss and I took the MRT. Yup they also have their MRT. But theirs is bigger and tidier. At mas hi-tech! Pa-swipe swipe lang ng token haha!

For more pictures, please visit my http://www.ngotty.multiply.com/

Thanks for the memories

2007-09-21T13:11:00.000+08:00

One night and One more time

Thanks for the memories

Even though they weren't so great

He tastes like you but sweeter

One night yeah one more time

Thanks for the memories

See he tastes like you even sweeter

I'm looking forward to the future

But my eyesight is going bad

In this crystal ball

It's all cloudy except for when you look into the past

One night stand (One night stand off!)

TEXT

2007-09-20T07:38:00.000+08:00

A FORWARDED MESSAGE:

Things to ponder on...

Sorry is never synonymous to "I won't do it again."

When he falls out, it doesn't mean you're giving less, it's because he's asking too much..

Crying before breaking up is good, you're trying to save the relationship. But crying after is different, it's stupidity.

There are no wasted tears, there are only inconsiderate partners.

Bitterness is often the painful consequence of holding on.

Third parties are not always the main issues, it's always the two of you.

Forgiveness is different from second chances.

A REACTION FROM MY OVER-REACTIVE TEXTMATE

Hindi ko pa nakuha 2nd part pero react na agad ako.
A person doesn't fall out when he/she is asking for something and doesn't get it. The fact that the person wants more signifies that he/she still wants something from the relationship.
Falling out is... nagsawa.. disinterested... even the prospect of adding something to the relationship doesn't add interest anymore. But that's just my opinion. Sinusulit ko lang unlitxt ko kaya mahilig ako mag react sayo haha!

MY REACTION:

Whatever! HAHAHA!

...

2007-09-10T19:04:00.000+08:00

i feel old...
i don't know why...
haha! sheeeeeeet... i need a boylet! now na!

broken

2007-08-22T07:01:00.000+08:00

My mug's lid just broke. Sad. ='(

*waaah, wala pa ko birthday post.. to follow..*

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY TO ME!

2007-08-10T23:54:00.000+08:00

Haaay... This year medyo dumami ang naka-alala ng birthday ko, and I'm very thankful for that!

Hi krystel. Advanced hapi bday. Di ko lam if I can drop by. Pansit Malabon ba handa mo? Alam ko that’s your favorite.
– Len Peralta 08/08/2007 11:52:22

(fireworks eklat)… Wishing you a lifetime of happiness! Mwah!
– Bianca Asiñas 08/09/2007 23:55:38

Ngot! Hapi bday!
– Leah Salta 08/09/2007 23:56:22

Ngotty! Happy happy birthday! Wala lang. Sana masaya ka. I wish u all the best. Labshu ngot. Happy birthday din daw sabi nila Yon and Anya.
– Lexie Gavilan 08/10/2007 00:00:52

Maligayang bati po sa iyo, naway masaya ang iyong kaarawan, iparamdam mo po sa mga kasama mo ang iyong pagdiriwang, ilibre mo sila snacks…
- Marc Ramos 08/10/2007 00:03:06

Hi kristal! ;p happy birthday! Hehe! Thanks! Wish to know u more. Good luck king pagiging mature.
– Maan Laud 08/10/2007 00:04:18

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NGOT! I wish for you more power and success sa career, sa buhay at sa inaasam asam mong love life. Hehehe.
– Chris Fernandez 08/10/2007 00:05:47

Happy birthday to you. Hapi bertdei 2 u.. hapi bertdei hapi bertdeeei.. happy birthday toooo youuuu! Kainan na!
– Tsi Malong 08/10/2007 00:06:30

Hapi hapi bday! Gud luck sa luvlyf!
– VJ Jusi 08/10/2007 00:07:56

Ate ngot! Happy 22nd bday! Sana magkaroon na ka boyfriend. Haha. Libre. Alabyu!
– Erine Garcia 08/10/2007 00:09:16

Happy birthday ngoty! Be hapi. Hehe, and paka-mature na? Hahaha!
– Jade Remigio 08/10/2007 00:10:02

Im not a composer so I can’t send u songs. Not a graphic designer so I can’t send u cute drawing. I’m just your friend. Would it be enough if all I can send u is this.. MY CARE? HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY FRIEND!
– Rain Romero 08/10/2007 00:11:47

Haya ate ngot. Happy happy 22nd. Mwah! Mwah! Mwah! La ako laod. Haha.
–Lis David 08/10/2007 00:17:56

Happy birthday..
– Vlad Cruz 08/10/2007 00:18:13

Hoy ate ngot! Hapi hapi birthday! (…censored...haha) Musta naman ing 22 years of no boyfriend? Hehe. Sana makahanap nakang someone in your life!
– Hazelle Bituin 08/10/2007 00:27:51

Hehe.. hapi bday ngoti!!
– Dia Lim 08/10/2007 00:33:28

Hi ate ngot! Happy bday 2 u, happy bday 2 u, happy bday 2x, happy bday 2 u., hehe kanta yan te ngot., hehe di lang halata! Wish ko e sana matupad lahat wishes mo and maka bonding pa kita., hehe., be happy., san nyan tayo? Hehe.. joke! Gud mornyt.. god blesss. Mwah!
– Maureen Timbol 08/10/2007 00:33:50

Ei ngoty! Hapy bday! Hope u have many boyfriends to come.
– Butchik Dungca 08/10/2007 00:36:12

Ate hapi bdei! We miss you so much! Mwah!
– Dei Tungol 08/10/2007 00:46:42

Happy birthday ate ngot…
- Kaka Timbol 08/10/2007 00:52:00

Happy birthday ngotty! Mag-night out tayo once para matupad ung wish ko para syo, hehe! God bless, enjoy the rest of your day.
– Aeyou Remigio 08/10/2007 00:51:30

Don’t fret that at 22, ala ka pa ring BF. I Toni Gonzaga nga eh, 23 ne when finally had a BF. Next year, akit me rin ing Paul Soriano mu! Happy birthday! Hope you’ll have a magical day!
– Wex Dizon 08/10/2007 02:09:03

Happy birthday krystel! Enjoy your special day.
– Eva Zamora 08/10/2007 02:30:00

Hapi bday ulit buds..
– Andre Galang 08/10/2007 05:48:36

Tel, happy birthday!!! Wish u all the best!!! God bless!
– Julie Garcia 08/10/2007 06:15:29

God always says YES to our prayers. It may not always be the YES that we want, but it will always be the YES that He knows best for us. I prayed for the best for you! Happy birthday!
– Hazel Cruz 08/10/2007 06:18:14

Happy 22nd birthday, Ngot!
– Dennis Manabat 08/10/2007 06:49:28

Happy birthday!
– Mae Mae 08/10/2007 07:05:27

Happy birthday. This is the day that the Lord has made.
– Nick Fontanilla 08/10/2007 07:29:55

Morning ngot! Happy birthday ulet! Hehe.
– Lexie Gavilan 08/10/2007 08:13:30

Happy bday! Enjoy your day.. God bless.
– Joan Tuazon 08/10/2007 08:33:07

Happy birthday my friend. All the best in the world! (..censored..haha)
– Shany 08/10/2007 08:35:48

Hapi bday!
– Kathlyn Cruz 08/10/2007 08:52:01

Happy bday tel! wishing u lots of love, laughter and long life. Ibato mo nalang handa mo dito da akin. Hehehe! Take care.
– Diana Roxas 08/10/2007 09:09:17

Hoy hapy butday! Sana nag ipon ka para sa libreng dinner naming. Kailangan ko bang bumili ng gown?
– Jaycee Gopez 08/10/2007 09:36:16

Happy birthday.
– Riza Destacamento 08/10/2007 09:48:04

Hapy hapy birthday ngot! Comsta na? eta man mikakit. Kapilan mu ku libri? Hehe.
– Kristel Kerr 08/10/2007 09:57:32

Hapi hapi birthday for u. May u have many many more birthdays to come.
– Dawn Cruz 08/10/2007 10:29:59

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Wish ko for you to have more fabulous birthdays. And no BOYS but more MEN to come. Naku, kumusta naman, ang gloomy ng iyong birthday dahil may bagyo. Happy birthday friend! Mwah!
– Aji Santiago 08/10/2007 10:59:50

Te! Habertdei! Hehe..
– April Parilla 08/10/2007 11:09:08

Ate ngot! Happy bday!
– Loree, Kim, Fergie 08/10/2007 11:15:22

Ate Ngot, HAPI BDAY!
– Marco Lansangan 08/10/2007 12:01:14

Ate, hapi bday! Kaka-load ku pa. hehe. Kapilan celeb?
– Hazel Tobias 08/10/2007 12:23:51

Hapy bday clasm8!
– Ahmira Shih 08/10/2007 13:47:53

Hapi bday.
– Marcy Cruz 08/10/2007 14:29:00

Cutie ngotty! Happy birthday!
– Abby Calamlam 08/10/2007 16:56:19

Ate! Happy birthday! Dahil every year namu wish ku keka BF, ena man matutuluy, edi ali namu this time, sana ali ka pa mika BF, hehe, let’s try this one naman. Hugs!
– Celine Dagdag 08/10/2007 17:12:01

Ate ngot! Hapy birthday! God bless and stay hapi.
– Yek Santos 08/10/2007 17:41:25

Haberdey! May u have more birthdays and more boylets to come. Hehe. God bless.
– Porshe Quindo 08/10/2007 17:42:49

Happy Birthday, Krystel!!! All the best! Hugs.
– Armine Francisco 08/10/2007 17:50:18

Tel, happy bday! God bless. TC! Miss u!
– Gian Buenaventura 08/10/2007 17:55:13

Ate ngot! Happy birthday!
– Acey 08/10/2007 18:59:02

Ate ngot! Hapi2x bday! Sana masaya ang buong taon na to para sayo, and lahat pa ng taong darating! May God shower you with more blessings! Haberdei ulit, be happy always! – Cindy Paguio 08/10/2007 18:59:53

Hapi bday tel! Blow out naman dyan.. Hehe.. May u always be blessed with good health and happiness. God bless u. Mwah!
– Shelah Cunanan 08/10/2007 20:14:39

Haburtdey 2 u, haburtdey 2 u, haburtdey haburtdey, haburtdey 2 u!
– Nen-Nen 08/10/2007 20:41:19

Happy birthday.
– Paul Feliciano 08/10/2007 22:18:21

Happy birthday!
– Jasmin David 08/10/2007 22:19:51

Before the day ends, greet ko lang ulit kayo ng hapi bdei! More boys for u. and blessings na rin.. God bless.
– Dei Tungol 08/10/2007 22:57:40

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRYSTEL! THANK YOU FOR THE TREAT. Sana every day bday u.
– Jackie Gayo 08/10/2007 23:33:51

Happy birthday!
– Zen Galban 08/10/2007 23:41:09

Hi ngot! Hope you had a great day, good night.
– Chris Fernandez 08/10/2007 23:48:46

Ate ngot, before the day ends, happy birthday to you. Mwah mwah!
– Eds Gozun 08/10/2007 23:52:39

Afi vertdey ten got. It’s better late than never ada pin. Nwei, I only hope hope the best for you. God bless! – Frida 08/10/2007 23:59:13

Happy birthday pre! Hehe. Hope nag enjoy ka today. I already ate the dinner I prepared for yah. Hahaha! Sana makumpleto araw mo. – Tsi Malong 08/11/2007 00:03:26

Good morning po and belated happy birthday! Take care always. – Donni Aguilar 08/11/2007 07:29:22

Uy ngot, binati kita! Hehe salamat! Labas tayo 20 ha? – Jay Icayan 08/11/2007 08:19:38

Ngot! Belated! Sori sa late greeting! – Lea Endaya 08/11/2007 09:03:05

Belated haberdey! – Cass and Mike 08/11/2007 14:41:01

Balu ku kasu ala ku kasi load kaya ali daka gnrit. Ingats ka. Miss danakayu. God bless. – Tzey Capili 08/12/2007 03:34:32

Ui ngot ngot ngot! Ate ngot happy happy happy birthday! Belated nap ala, di kta nabati kahapon kasi ala ako # mo, ala c ate, anjan sa inyo saka ala pa ko unli nun e, ngaun meron an.. Basta happy birthday! God bless. – Angel Gavilan 08/12/2007 10:35:12

Ngotty! Sabi mama, bkt di ka daw naming binilhan ng totoong cake. Haha. Belated daw. – Lexie Gavilan 08/12/2007 10:35:13

Ate ngot! Belated happy birthdei.
– Anya Arguelles 08/12/2007 10:35:14

Tel.. hehe.. naku belated happy bday. Late na late.
– Cor Coronel 08/14/2007 12:22:27

Well, it’s better late than never. Belated te krystel. Sana next year maalala ko na. sina chedeng at dodong kasi eh. Nawala nako sa wisyo, hehe.
– Titus Rodriguez 08/14/2007 20:48:07

Belated happy birthday!
– Raymond Silva 08/16/2007 22:22:49

Belated po!
– Jethro Villaceran 08/18/2007 20:01:42

What?!

2007-08-03T07:15:00.000+08:00

Is it just me? Or is it plain stupidity?
I guess both.

ME = stupid
stupid = ME

Case #0001
From now on, I won't be bothering you anymore.
Yeah, I said these same words last year.
But today, it's for real. *wink*
A little respect for myself.
Are you even listening to yourself?
Damn, you (really) are my sweetest downfall...

Case#0002
It's your fault!
You don't even know me.
You don't know what I'm capable of.
Haha. Okay fine.
I made a mistake. Sorry.
But you must understand that this is who I am.
Sometimes people just don't get me.
Or, maybe it is them that I don't get.
Oh well, whatever!

Hello

2007-07-24T12:29:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

How are you?
It's been a loooong time.
I miss you.
I hope you miss me too.
Wahahaha!

Leche, these past few weeks have been quite disturbing for me.
Ay, Im not sure if "disturbing" is the right word.
Hmmm...

There's just too much stress all over me.
Haay... I'll get back to you soon.

Bye!

6 months old

2007-06-18T08:40:00.000+08:00

It’s been six months now since I first stepped into this office.

I can still remember my first day at work.

I wore a pink short-sleeved blouse and black slacks, matched with my pair of bronze sandals. I was introduced to the company that morning. Oh boy, I was really nervous. What do they expect of me? Could I possibly get along with them? What if they don’t like me? Oh well…

That day was relatively a boring day for me. All I did was read, read and read. Well I did a little chat on YM and browsed some of my friendsters. But overall, I just read a ~~damn~~ manual. What do I expect? I was on training then.

Okay, enough about my first day. Nothing much happened.

Gosh, time really flies sooo fast. It’s been six months. And nothing much has changed.

Okay, maybe some things have changed. Let me count these things.

1. I have gained new friends. The people in the office are really great people. We are one big family here. Yeah it sounds cliché-ish, but it’s true!

2. My boss is really a promising man! (FYI: It took me 30 minutes thinking of the perfect word to describe him.) I admire his intelligence, confidence, humor and everything. Although sometimes, gusto ko siyang kalbuhin, especially every Monday. Haha!

3. I have been exposed to different people in the corporate world. Jusko, kumusta naman ang kausapin ang presidente ng isang kumpanya diba?!

4. I have learned to become independent… and to make decisions on my own.

5. My sense of direction has improved. Medyo alam ko na kung saan ang Buendia at Ayala. At alam ko na rin na magkaiba ang Pedro Gil at Gil Puyat (akala ko dati iisa lang siya eh).

6. I now know how to operate a fax machine. Yehey! I also have my flat monitor. Yehey ulit! And I have a very comfy chair! Woohoo! At wala ng virus PC ko! Hahaha.

Hmmm.. that’s all for now. Yun lang naisip ko eh.

Shocks, six months… I constantly tell my officemates that I will resign in September, that’s three months from now. Well, we’ll see. Hahahaha. It’s really the people here that make me want to stay more than anything else.

Overall, I enjoyed my stay in this company. The six months I spent here was remarkable.

Six months… that’s half of a year. I wonder how much longer I would stay here…

2007-06-05T17:49:00.000+08:00

A long lost friend! Kumusta ka naman diba!

So little time

2007-05-31T12:48:00.000+08:00

When I had the time, I wasted it slowly.
Now that I am running out of time, all I could do is to run twice as fast.
Funny how people take some things for granted.
Our "psychologist", Mr. Celicious (yeah, you read it right, Celicious), told us that there is no such thing as time management because you cannot manage time. What you need to do is to manage your schedule. Yeah right. Easier said than done.
Haaay, I feel dry. I think I have been dried up. Dried up by the idea that I have so many things to do.

What do I do now???

Giving Up and Giving In

2007-05-01T00:26:00.000+08:00

Have you ever had a dream so great that when you wake up you wish you would have just slept forever? Too bad no one can escape from reality. No matter how great or awesome your dream might be, one thing is for sure, you have to wake up. As much as you want to sleep, you can't. Because you have a life to live. Dreams won't put food on your plate. Dreams won't pay your bills. Dreams won't solve any of your problems. Dreams are just dreams. They are there to give us a quick fancy escape from reality. Just that. Nothing more.

Sometimes we have to realize that life is what we make it. Our every day decisions affect our tomorrow. Every minute. Every second. It all boils down to how much we made a difference. How much we strived to be better than today. How much we grew. How much we moved forward.

But.. what the hell. ~~Sometimes~~ Most of the time, I feel too tired to even try. Have you ever tried doing things the right way exactly at the right time? Well, I think I have. But where am I now? Still here. Not much different. Well, a little bit more charming than before (hahaha!). But honestly, nothing's changed. I am still the same old me. And that really sucks. As in sucks with a capital K! I am starting to give up on trying. I am starting to give in to monotony. Good thing there are a few great people who give me a little spark of hope (uy, starbucks un ah!). People who make me realize that maybe I just have to try a little harder. That maybe I don't need to change. That maybe I am following the wrong path. That maybe I should stop using I, and instead start to think of people other than me.

Well, I don't really know. How could I possibly know? Would you know?

Okay whatever. It's time for me to sleep. A chance to dream.
Sana mapanaginipan ko si TooT!

Message Centre

2007-04-10T19:33:00.001+08:00

Starlet: Im not running away. Yoko lang ng complications. Txt wont hurt cguro pero iniisip ko lang kung ano maffeel ni Bruha pag nalaman niyang nagtetext pa kami ni Brusko. Babae rin ako. Alam ko na ngayon how much it hurts. Gusto ko man makipagkwentuhan kay Brusko, may naghohold back sa kin. Sabi ko nga sa kanya, masaya nako for them. And I respect their relationship. Enough na un.

Brusko: Nakaka-konsensya naman! Gulo?! Toinks! Ah, pag nagtext siya, baka magkagulo… aaaah.. waaaah pag nagtext si Starlet baka magka-gyera tapos kasabay ng bagyong Reming tapos,,, tapos may babagsak na bulalakaw dito sa pinas tapos,,, tapos magiging presidente si Manny Pacquiao tapos,,, tapos papatol ako sa bading tapos P1500 per unit na sa UP!!!! SHeeeet! Ang gulooooh! Waaaaaaah!! Hehe.. ang OA.

Brusko: Yeah.. texts wont hurt.. and they wont hurt even if she’ll know about them. Complications? Nah. If ever there’ll be complications, they’ll be minimal lang. We age, we learn, we grow. Sometimes it’s fine to regard how others feel because of respect and empathy. However, sometimes too, you lose track of the usual things that make you happy in the usual way u know and in the usual way you do. The respect you gave is the same respect that will be awarded to you. That’s how friends do it. That’s how we do it. Thanks Starlet. Thanks pharre! Wahahah! Ako ba to? May ganito pa talaga akong nalalaman?! Hindi, totoo lahat yan. Just don’t wanna sound so serious. Chill!

Starlet: Ang strange na ng feeling na itong tinatype ko ngayon ay para sayo. Haba ng message mo ah. Kaso parang joke.. hehehe.. di ko lam kung naka trip ka o u just wanna make things light. Anyway, I got the point (hehe hindi nako slow ngayon!).. it’s okay, it’s alright.. meri xmas!

_______________
Sa ngayon, may kanya-kanya ng ka-relasyon sina Starlet at Brusko.
Good for me.. este, good for them.. Hahaha..

April Fools' Day

2007-04-01T14:19:00.000+08:00

Hey, it's April Fools' Day.
Bakit walang nag-prank sa kin ngayon?
Haha..

Cebu part II

2007-03-18T16:09:00.000+08:00

Last Tuesday, again, I went to Cebu! (Yipeeeeee!)

Same old. Plus one.

Sa airport pauwi na, caught in the act by Big Boss.

one day

2007-03-08T09:58:00.000+08:00

Last Tuesday, I went to Cebu, together with my boss.

And last tuesday, I left Cebu. Haha.

We had a presentation there.

It was actually my first presentation for this company.

Hay naku. Di ko alam bakit ako sinabak dun!

Ayun, dalawang DOM kasama ko. Haha.

My bossing. And our general manager there in Cebu.

I thought it would just be a boring day.

Well, in the morning, we had our presentation.

And in the afternoon. We had several stops.

We had our lunch at Eddie's Log Cabin, a cowboy inspired resto.

Ang ganda nung place. Authentic na cowboy resto talaga.

I ordered Baby Back Ribs.

It was great! Tapos ang laki nung serving. Di ko naubos. Sayang.

Too bad I wasn't able to take many pictures.

Kakahiya naman sa mga DOM na kasama ko diba. Haha.

First, PSBank.

Those two DOMs withdrew lots of money. Haha.

Hmmm... may monkey business yata tong dalawang to ah.

Second, we went to University of San Carlos for a business thingy.

Ang ganda ng campus na un, grabe!

Maganda pa sa UP Diliman!

As in para siyang landscaped garden.

Nice school. Nice sceneries.

Third, ahm, wala na kami magawa.

We just spent the afternoon having coffee at Starbucks.

Tapos naisip ni DOM#2 na dalhin kami sa Lapu-Lapu shrine and have our dinner there.

So ayun, we had one hour travel to that place.

And grabe, ang ganda!

I had the chance to bond with our hero, Lapu-Lapu, pati na rin si Magellan. Haha.

Then, dinner at No Problem Restaurant.

Grabe, ang saraaaaaaap!

We had shrimp, fish (kitang) and alimasag.

Yummy! What a way to end the day...

Ayun, my first time to Cebu.

Great. Amazing. Remarkable.

Who would have thought I'll enjoy this much with these DOMs?!

Haha.

What about today?

2007-02-14T19:18:00.000+08:00

Nothing special.
Just an ordinary day.
Happy Valentine's Day everyone!
Let's all be happy...

Shock and Awe

2007-02-13T11:53:00.000+08:00

That was mental torture.
I was caught off guard.
I swear I could feel tears forming behind my eyes.

Thank you so much.

SHIT HAPPENS FOR A REASON

2007-02-04T00:27:00.000+08:00

It's Friday and as usual I'm going home to my lovely province.
I'll be riding the bus with Mike.
As much as possible I want somebody to be with me while taking the bus home.
He wanted to go home as early as possible that day because he'll be reporting for work the next day.
I really don't know why he had to go home pa.

He said he might be able to leave their office at 4:30 pm.
But I can't leave our office until 5 pm.
Shit.

At around 4:30 pm, he said he was still doing something. Great!

But also around that time, I was busy doing something and it's taking me some time to finish it. Before I knew it, it was 5 minutes past 5 pm.
Shit.

Mike calling...

Before answering his call, I have decided that I'll let him go ahead because I don't really want to keep him waiting. But he insisted that he'd wait for me. Partly because I told him earlier that I don't know how to go home on my own. Haha.

So there, I left the office at 5:15 pm. I rode a jeepney to get to the MRT. On the way, there was this LBC guy riding his motorbike. He was persistently trying to overtake the jeepney in front of us. Then poof! He sort of bumped into the jeepney and crashed onto the ground. I really didn't see what happened. All I know that he was hurt badly. Shit.

When I got to the station, I walked as fast as I could, on two-inch high heels. Paid the cashier. Got a ticket. The train was there already. I hurriedly inserted the ticket into its slot and... the train left.
Shit.

Now I am really late.

When I got to Taft, I had some kind of a problem. I don't know which way to go. Left or right? Shit. Hmmm... After thinking about it, which I really wasn't able to do, I went Left. And woohoo, I was right! (Don't get confused, I went left and I was right... nice.)

And there in McDo awaits my wonderful friend.
"Nandin ka pa?", I asked.
Translation: "Kanina ka pa?"
He nodded.
Shit. Now I'm terrified.

The story doesn't end here.

After that, I asked him to wait a little more because I had to order some snacks. And damn, am I the unluckiest person today?! There were five queues and they were all quite long. So I chose the line which was nearest to me. To my surprise, it was the worst queue. It must be the cashier. She was sooo bagal! There were only three persons before me. I was waiting for almost 30 minutes.
Shit.

And finally we're going home. It's 6 pm.

When we got to the terminal, the Genesis bus was empty.
Mike said they will fill the entire bus seats. Shit. I'm doomed.

But luckily, the bus left even if it was just half filled.

Woohoo! We are now on our way home. I hope no more shit happens.

The bus had a TV and "Ballistic" was the featured movie for tonight. I was watching it while eating my hamburger and McFloat but after some time, I got tired and fell asleep. When I woke up, we were still in the busy part of EDSA. Traffic. Heavy traffic.
Shit.

After quite some time, quite a long time, we finally reached NLEX, there was still a bit of heavy traffic. Then poof! We spotted another Genesis bus on the roadside, with a big truck in front of it.

"Ngot, iyan dapat saken tamu nandin." said Mike.
Translation: "Ngot, yan dapat sasakyan natin kanina."

The bus' windshield was shattered. Several passengers were waiting on the roadside waiting for another bus to rescue them. Of course we don't know what happened. But we pretty much have an idea what happened.

"Osimap pala late ka.", said Mike.
Translation: "Buti na lang late ka."

Oh my.
Shit happens for a reason.
There was a reason why I wasn't able to leave the office at exactly 5 pm.
There was a reason why I had to wait for the next train in the MRT.
There was a reason why the cashier was sooo bagal in taking orders.

Well, at the end of that day, I just had to thank God for everything.

____________
"When everything seems so wrong, just thank God you're alive."

2007-01-30T18:04:00.000+08:00

I am idle.

I am waiting.

I am wasted.

I am ready.

I am ready. ='(

CHOCOLATES FOR SALE!

2007-01-29T08:12:00.000+08:00

Perfect gift for Valentine's Day!

In a relationship?
Give it to your partner.

Single?
Treat yourself a box of chocolates.

February 14 is not just for couples.
Show your friends how much you love and appreciate the bond you share.

_____
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it's been a while

2007-01-23T17:03:00.000+08:00

hey friends!

grabe, it's been quite a long time since my last post...
shocks, wala nako maisulat eh..
wala na rin time masyado..
wala ng lovelives eh, wala rin enemies.. haha..
oh well, next time, i'll write something substantial,
or controversial, hahaha!

ciao!

HAPPY FEET

2006-11-25T23:43:00.000+08:00

Shasha’s teacher: (In a one-hour period… with a mellow coñotic voice.) Ay class, gusto ko kayo lahat dalhin sa movie house to watch Happy Feet. Kung pwede lang talaga… Ang ganda talaga. It made me cry cry. Tinutukso nga ako nung boyfriend ko, bakit daw ako nag cry cry. Haay grabe talaga, ang ganda, as in…

I think it was early March when I first heard of Happy Feet. Jhae was persistently talking about how she is so excited to see the movie. By the way, Jhae is crazily in love with penguins. Yeah, those creatures wearing tuxedoes, haha!

Well, I have to admit that I don’t really have the heart for animated films. I mean, come on, I’d rather watch real people than those darn computer graphics. I couldn’t possibly drool over a graphical Legolas or Harry Potter. Haha… I think the greatest animated film ever created is The Lion King. It’s just great. It made me cry. Hehe…

There are two reasons why I am forced to watch animated films. First, I am watching with my nieces or nephews or other younger people. And second, I am watching with a group (and as usual, majority wins! – by the way, I am always in the minority. Most of the time, I am the only one in the minority. Poor me.)

Okay okay… enough of this.

That was quite a long introduction.

There’s no better way to say this.

So…. here it goes.

I have watched Happy Feet.

I was with Tel, Leah, Sha and Ella.

We were deciding between Happy Feet and Wag Kang Lilingon.

I bet you probably know by now which movie won. Hehe.

(In fairness, it was a close fight.)

It was somewhat a musical.

It was so entertaining!

The songs were great. The Backstreet Boys were there. Hahaha!

Well, what can I say?

Hmmm… IT MOVED ME.

Yeah… Mushy…

The script was spectacular… funny…

It has those It’s-not-you-It’s-me and I-need-space type of bullsh*t. Haha!

It made me regret not taking up Tap Dance PE class in college.

It’s really good. Not just a feel good movie. Not just a kiddie movie.

It ws great!

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!

2006-11-20T15:01:00.000+08:00

Well, well, well...
It's been a year huh?
Wahahaha....
Who would have thought we'll end up like this?
Who would have thought it will end anyway?
Hahaha...
Oh gosh, everytime I think about it,
I couldn't help but burst into laughter!
What can I say?! It just gives me the creeps!
Wahahaha!

Oh well, we were all so crazy.
It was one crazy journey.
One bastard driver. (haha, joke mu!)
Two passengers in the back seat.
(Good thing I was able to get out! Haha..)
And others were just hitchin' for a ride.

Wahahahaha...
Wasn't it great?
Our story is an epic.
Tell the story you must.
Haha...

Oh well, all good things must come to an end.

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!

A JOLLY BIRTHDAY

2006-11-18T21:27:00.000+08:00

We just celebrated the 6^th birthday of my favorite niece, Audrey Mae, kanina. It was held at Jollibee at 2 o’clock in the afternoon. We have been preparing for this event for almost a month. Hehe. We’re really so excited. First time kasi may mag be-birthday party sa family namin. Haha! Dapat talaga sa McDo, but there were no more available slots when we inquired there eh. So we ended up in Jollibee. Okay rin naman dun.

The first we thing na inisip namin is ung costume nya! Hahaha… We initially thought of dressing her as a princess, yun na sana kung natuloy sa McDo. Kaso hindi eh. Eh tapos ung theme sa Jollibee, circus! Kaya naisip namin na mag butterfly/fairy effect na lang siya. Hehehe. Isn’t she adorable?!

We invited Mae’s classmates and friends, our relatives, our neighbors, my friends, my sister’s friends, my other sister’s friends, my mother’s friends and many more. Haha. Halata bang excited kame?!

This is my first ever picture with a mascot. Hahaha. I am so happy. I love Jollibee.

And here are a few of my closest friends. In fairness, kilala naman nila si Mae eh, so they really have the right to attend the party. Hehe. From left, we have: Me, Leah, Dei, Mike, Celine and Jade. Absent si Tel. Hehe…

Haaay… Just like any event… ang tagal hinintay, ang tagal pinaghandaan.. and in just an hour or two, tapos na… Excited na nga kami sa next birthday niya eh.. Hahaha. I’m thinking of a costume party. Hmmmmmm.... Hehe.

a busy day

2006-11-12T00:15:00.000+08:00

Nakakatamad ang panahon ngayong araw na to.
Ang lamig ng simoy ng hangin pagkagising ko.
Pero nakakainis dahil brownout pala!
Meron akong bagong gimik tuwing sabado. Hahaha.
Isa akong professional econ tutor! Haha.
Well, I just started last week.
Si Shasha, na anak ni Romer at Emmy, at kapatid ni Tel.
Ayun, maayos naman yata ang pagtuturo ko.
Nakakahiya nga dahil hindi naman talaga ako magaling sa econ!
Taga pisay pa si Shasha.
Baka mas matalino pa siya sa kin. Wahaha.

Ayun, tapos nagsimba kami sa Cathedral, kasama ang buong Kerr Clan.
It's been quite a while since I entered a Church.
Hindi naman ako nasunog.

And then, napag-alaman lang namin na ang isa naming kaibigan ay naka-confine (sa AUF). At ayaw niya pang ipa-alam sa amin. Syempre, dali-dali namin siyang pinuntahan (kami nina Tel and Leah).

Sino pa nga ba ang tinutukoy ko kundi ang Pambansang Sakitin naming kaibigan - si Jade.

Ayun, wala naman pala siyang malubhang karamdaman.
Yung normal lang na mga sakit nya.
Kaya hindi na kami masyado nag-alala. Hehe.

Ayun, bandang alas nwebe ay umuwi na rin kami.
Nakakapagod pala ang araw na ito.
Salamat at ligtas si Ronnie. Hehehe.

TRY THIS ONE..

2006-11-05T03:01:00.001+08:00

Hey there! Check this out. I got it from Jaya’s blog.
And yeah, it’s really weird.

10 August 1985

Your date of conception was on or about 17 November 1984 which was a Saturday.
You were born on a Saturdayunder the astrological sign is Leo.
Your Life path number is 5.

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 3 & 9.
You may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path number 8.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 6, 11 & 22.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2446287.5.
The golden number for 1985 is 10.
The epact number for 1985 is 8.
The year 1985 was not a leap year.
Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/20/1985 and ending 2/8/1986.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Ox.
Your Native American Zodiac sign is Salmon; your plant is Raspberry.

As of 11/4/2006 1:44:56 PM EST
You are 21 years old.
You are 255 months old.
You are 1,108 weeks old.
You are 7,756 days old.
You are 186,157 hours old.
You are 11,169,464 minutes old.
You are 670,167,896 seconds old.

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 3.03561643835616 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)

Your birthstone is Peridot The Mystical properties of Peridot
Peridot is used to help dreams become a reality.
Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)
Sardonyx, Diamond, Jade

Your birth tree is
Poplar, the Uncertainty
Looks very decorative, no self-confident behaviour, only courageous if necessary, needs goodwill and pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, great animosity, artistic nature, good organiser, tends to philosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnership serious.
There are 51 days till Christmas 2006!There are 64 days till Orthodox Christmas!

The moon's phase on the day you were born was waning crescent.

___________________
Come on, try it.. Hehe..
http://www.paulsadowski.com/birthdata.asp
Ang masasabi ko lang, WHATEVER! hehehe...

PEACE BE WITH YOU ALL

2006-10-17T18:03:00.000+08:00

Disclaimer: This blog post is not inspired by any (present-day) related experience. At this very moment, I live a peaceful life. (Hahaha..)

My four years in UP had been quite fruitful.

I’ve gained so many friends.

Friends for keeps.

Friends with benefits. (hahaha!)

And of course, frenemies.

FRENEMY – noun. ¹ a friend who had become your enemy, ² an enemy who had become your friend. What could be worse? Not knowing who’s who.

Note: A frenemy status is usually temporary.

I think many of us have had frenemies at some point in their lives. I had a few. Okay, maybe more than a few. Haha.

Wait lang... I am supposed to apologize to all the people I’ve hurt. Be it for my plain stupidity or genuine cruelty. Oh well, I am proud to declare that most of the frenemies I’ve had are now my friends, real friends (I hope.)

Here is a list of those I’ve chenelyned over the past four years. Haha. I opted not to divulge their full names for confidentiality. Also, baka hindi sila aware eh. I can be sooo paranoid at times.

In no particular order… (drum roll please…)

R _ _ _

T _ _

J _ _ _

L _ _ _

K _ _ _ _

R _ _

G _ _ _

P _ _ _

J _ _

V _ _

I _ _ _

D _ _ _

C _ _ _ _

S _ _

T _ _

C _ _ _ _

So there, peace be with you all… Let’s all be happy!

If you think you should be on the list, just leave your comment. Haha.

hello!

2006-10-08T00:05:00.000+08:00

kumusta naman kayo? hehehe...
wala lang.. medyo matagal na kong walang matinong post eh.. hehe..
oh well, wala kasi akong inspiration eh.. haha!
wala naman akong kaaway..
walang boylet..
walang exciting na kung ano man..
wala.. wala.. wala..
yun lang.. nahihiya naman ako sa mga bumibisita dito eh..
mag tag naman kayo! para alam ko na may mga nagtitiyaga pa ring bumisita dito.. hehe..
ayun, sige, sana masaya kayong lahat!

It pays to be honest

2006-09-14T00:04:00.000+08:00

Habang ako'y nagbubulatlat ng kung anu-ano sa kabinet namin. Nasilayan ko ang isang lumang magasin. Naninilaw na ito at lumang-luma na talaga. Ako'y nabigla dahil ito pala'y iskul peyper namin noong ako ay nasa mataas na paaralan pa. Binasa ko ito at ako'y natuwa sa isang artikulo. Eto basahin mo.

Lying... we all know it's incorrect but we do it. Sometimes we find it difficult to tell the truth, we don't have the guts to do so or we hate the idea of being embarrassed and rejected. We think of lying as an escape from reality. Maybe, at that moment. But think again about the possibilities that could occur because all those fibs you made up will come back and haunt you. One lie (regardless of the color - funny...) could lead to another - you have to cover up for the previous one you made. That is even a tougher job for you to do because you have to remember your fabricated story and all. But all these hard work will mean nothing, be put to waste because sooner or later, whether you like it or not, people will find out. Just imagine what your punishment will be, it couldn't get any better. Besides, it's a little hard to contain. The guilt lingers inside, increasing the stress, making you anxious and worried at all times and leaving you wondering whether people know already of something. And... who do you think you're fooling? The big loser is YOU! Knowing you have done wrong, you won't feel good about it, you may lose respect for yourself especially if you've done it several times. Lying will never make you better even if you tell everyone that you're someone you're really not - it won't change anything, it would make you worse.

It's hard to earn other people's trust when you're not truthful. Your social being suffers - like how could you possibly win friends? Who wants to spend time with a conceited person? You know the answer.

It really pays to be honest. It could be difficult but you've got to try. Others would really appreciate it because they know it's not always easy to tell the truth.
- NJ, The Blue Quill (Official Publication of SSA-SF) vol. LVII no. 2, August-December 1998

Wala lang... natutuwa lang ako.. Har har..

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Sampung oras mula ngayon, may gagawin akong mahirap na desisyon. Sana tama ang aking napiling gawin. Pagpalain tayo ng Poong Maykapal.

Pieces of Advice

2006-09-04T15:45:00.000+08:00

It’s nice to go out sometimes and get some fresh air. Being at home for quite some time now has been such a boring experience for me. I’ve had enough of being just a home buddy. And now, I can feel it, malapit na…

Hehe… Since I have this vow of being nicer na, here are some pieces of advice to my friends.

To A:
Hats off ako sa ‘yo… Ang bait mo naman. Like what I’ve said, huwag mo masyado dibdibin ang mga pangyayari. Keri lang yan! Go go go! Oy, sa birthday mo ha…

To B:
Kumusta ka naman?! Haven’t heard from you since… uhm.. basta, matagal na.. Oh well, I’m glad you’re getting your life back on track na. (Plastic noh?!) Haha… ahm, I just hope you’re happy.

To C1:
Haay… I totally understand what you’re going through. But I won’t give you those I’ve-been-there-and-I-told-you-so statements. Buhay mo yan eh. I’m happy for you. Good luck. May gift ako sa ‘yo – platform balance.

To C2:
Aba, miss na kita… Isa ka ng seryosong tao ngayon ah.. hehe.. Huwag mo naman masyado paka-aral, baka hindi ka na makapag-asawa niyan. Haha!

To C3:
Ang haba ng hair mo hija! Konting ingat lang, baka maapakan ko.. haha!

To D:
Ang bait mo. Salamat sa lahat. At some point, may nakikita akong similarities natin eh, pero dati yun, I’m nice na eh.. hehe..

To KC:
O, magpapayat ka na ha... napag-iiwanan ka na.. Hehe. Gud lak sa yo.

To L:
Oy in fairness, may itsura nga ang bago mong crush! Balita ko nga marami daw may crush sa kanya eh.. Congrats, nag-iimprove na ang tastebuds mo! Haha…

To PPP:
Hello! Long time no see ah.. hehe. Ay kamusta naman ang three times na ma-busted? Ang tindi mo pare.. Oh well, ikaw bahala. Ang drama mo sa blog mo ha. Hehe. In fairness, you’re looking good. Yiheee, muling ibalik…. Haha! I have a gift for you pala – a pair of eyeglasses, just so you can see clearly.

success

2006-08-29T09:55:00.000+08:00

After almost a month of struggling through Strangetown, I’ve finally finished the game! Wohoo! It was fun and exciting. The first time I heard about Sims, I didn’t really paid much attention. I thought it was senseless – creating your own world, making friends, buying things, doing stuff, blah blah blah… But when I finally get the chance to play it… well, I got hooked! Thanks to my 5-year old niece and her PSP! Well at first I was just forced to play it because my niece would ask me to read what is needed to be done in the game. In the end, I ended up playing the whole thing. What’s more exciting about the Sims 2 is that I get to unlock secrets! I love secrets! Haha… I also love making friends! Here is my profile at the end of the game.

Secrets Score 160

Friends Score 180

Sanity Points 122, 960

Assets Score $17, 718

Cash $19, 033

O diba? Lots of secrets yun ah! Hehehe… I think it would be more exciting kung real life ‘to noh? Haha. Buti na lang at mas mataas yung Friends Score ko than my Secrets Score, kung hindi, eh nagmukha lang akong tsismosa. Haha.

Haaay… I’m sad because I have no more game to play. Adik na lang ako kung uulitin ko pa yun noh!

so, what's new?!

2006-08-28T15:33:00.000+08:00

Well, surprisingly, there's nothing new.
I just thought of changing my blogsite because... uhm.. wala lang.
I just find it cute. Hehe.
Feeling ko I've evolved into a better person. Haha.
I'm actually nicer now. Wooshoo..

twenty-one

2006-08-11T22:10:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.. I’m thinking of a nice birthday post..

How about Top 21 Memorable Moments in my life?
Nah.. Too mushy..
Or, 21 Great Deeds of Ngotty the Cutie? Ngek.. Too flashy.. Hehe.. (Actually, I’m just afraid I may not be able to gather as much as 21.)
Why not 21 Fantastic Foes? Hmm.. That’s kinda hard, considering I have too many on that list. Haha..

Instead of recalling previous events in my 21 years of existence, I’ve thought of gathering 21 things I would love to experience!

(in no particular order…)

1. bungee jumping – waaaaah, excited nako!
2. News report – kahit anong network.. I prefer ung ChikaMinute type.. hehe.. I love chismis! Haha..
3. music video – I would like to appear in any music video.. wla lang.. it’s so cool eh.. pa-emote emote effect.. hehe…
4. commercial – hehe.. napansin nyo ba, I would love TV appearances? Hehe..
5. win in a game show – gusto ko sa Game KNB? Exciting un diba?!
6. investigate – gusto ko ala CSI.. un bang tipong I’ll be able to solve some kind of mystery ek ek..
7. Disneyland – sino bang ayaw makapunta dito noh?!
8. Snow – hindi ba ko nakakakita ng snow! Pinagtiyatiyagaan ko na lang ung freezer namin, hehe..
9. ice skating – I don’t know how to skate.. but I’d like to learn how..
10. butterfly – I’m talking about a swimming stroke here ha… ang hirap kasi nito eh. I wasn’t able to perform it properly when I took swimming lessons last year..
11. medieval clothing – wala lang.. trip ko lang magsuot ng mga dress na ganun.. parang napaka-respetadong tingnan eh..
12. photographer – I love taking pictures!!! (especially myself)
13. Stuck in an elevator – it has always been my dream to get stuck in an elevator, tapos may kasama kang gwapo.. haha.. this is the moment!
14. stargazing sa Sunken Garden – I miss UP a lot.. wala lang.. trip ko lang mag stargazing at mag senti-sentihan..
15. guitar and drums – I love music and I hope it can love me too.. hehe.. hindi ko man makuha sa boses, edi daanin sa mga musical instruments..
16. waitress – haha, pinagtatawanan ako ng mga friends ko pag sinasabi ko na gusto kong maging waitress… e gusto ko tlga un eh! Ung mag-seserve ka ng food.. basta..
17. Pepsi billboard – astig kaya ang mga naglalakihang Pepsi billboards! I envy Jericho Rosales, Rico Blanco, Nicole Hernandez, et al. I want to be one of them!
18. Bench body – eto pa ang isa.. kahit hindi ako masyadong sexy (haha!), gusto ko pa rin i-try to!
19. restaurant – since high school ko pa naisip to put up my own restaurant. I will name it “Cruise”.. gets nyo naman cguro bkt noh?
20. Malacañang flag – wala lang.. curious lang ako ano itsura sa personal nung gigantic flag sa Malacañang..
21. design my own wedding gown – finally, eto nga.. pero sana naman, makahanap ako ng husband noh? Hehe.. gusto kong motif periwinkle! Cool noh? Hehe..

so there, sana naman I will be able to accomplish some of these things in my entire existence noh? Pray for me ha.. hehe..

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Thank you very much to those who remembered my Birthday!
And to those who did not, ayos lang.. I understand.. (wushu..) haha..

http://www.GlitterMaker.com/ - Glitter Graphics

one day old

2006-08-09T00:34:00.000+08:00

Shocks!

I'll be turning 21 years old tomorrow!

Sheeeet!

I can't believe that I've been alive for 21 years na..

Huhuhu...

COMING OUT

2006-07-28T23:31:00.000+08:00

This is the moment!
They are all coming out... one by one!

Darren Hayes

On June 19th 2006 I married my boyfriend of two years, Richard, in a Civil Partnership ceremony in London.

I can honestly say it was the happiest day of my life.

I feel lucky to live in an era where my relationship can be considered legally legitimate and I commend the UK Government for embracing this very basic Civil Liberty.

I'm proud of who I am, and after what felt like an eternity, I'm finally in a place where my heart is secure and content. And I can finally make sense of all of the searching.

www.darrenhayes.com

Lance Bass

Lance Bass, the former 'N Sync heartthrob, reveals that he is gay in an exclusive interview with PEOPLE.

"I knew that I was in this popular band and I had four other guys' careers in my hand, and I knew that if I ever acted on it or even said (that I was gay), it would overpower everything," says Bass, referring to bandmates Joey Fatone, Chris Kirkpatrick, JC Chasez and Justin Timberlake.

"The thing is, I’m not ashamed – that’s the one thing I want to say," he explains of his decision to come out. "I don't think it's wrong, I'm not devastated going through this. I'm more liberated and happy than I’ve been my whole life. I'm just happy."

Lance is now looking ahead to new beginnings. He is in a "very stable" relationship with model-actor-Amazing Race winner Reichen Lehmkuhl, 32.

http://people.aol.com/people/article/0,26334,1219142,00.html

ayun... wala lang..kumusta naman un?!

The extinction of the real male species is at hand!

Wahaha...

Keep on coming out!!!

g u i l t y

2006-07-23T23:24:00.000+08:00

Last night, I slept rather early than usual.

I went online but after an hour, I accidentally got disconnected. As I always do.

Instead of getting back (which will probably take me about an hour), I decided to sleep.

It was 12 midnight when I last took a glimpse of my phone’s clock.

Morning came.

The irritating alarm woke me up.

It’s 9 am.

And as usual, I check my phone to see any morning greetings for me.

And there were a few.

Feeling still a bit sleepy, I browsed through the text messages starting from the bottom.

And that was it.

I knew it.

After reading a couple of text messages, I felt a sudden rush of thumping in my chest.

How I wish I could have just slept forever…

How I wish the Hezbollahs would come right into our house and release a deadly bomb onto my head…

How I wish…

Okay, wake up ngot, get up…

I feel paralyzed. Like I can’t move nor think straight.

As I was drinking a glass of water, I can still feel the thumping in my chest.

It goes on and on. Harder and harder.

What am I going to do?

How will I clean up this mess?

Only one thing came to my mind.

As you read this, you should have known by now what it was.

Sorry…

I am guilty.

..changes..

2006-07-09T02:10:00.000+08:00

hi..
let me share a few changes in my life these past few weeks...

1. favorite color.. before, PINK! but lately, im starting to like GREEN.. come to think of it, i hated this color my entire life! haha.. bakit kaya?

2. music.. i'm starting to like OPM! 100% Pinoy! hehe.. nowadays, i love listening to the music of craeons, up dharma down, juana, mayonaisse, pupil, dicta license, top suzara, join the club, and more.. mabuhay ang musikang pilipino! wohoo!

3. i'm getting hooked on leisure books na! sa wakas! thanks to my friend, jhae, who lent me some oof her books.. try reading "no boyfriend since birth" by claire betita.. it's nice! hehe..

4. i have an extreme addiction for sampaloc (ung candy ha!)... as in everyday, hinahanap-hanap ko ang maasim na sampaloc.. aba, kumikita ang tindahan sa tabi ng bahay namin, e halos araw araw na yata akong nagpapabili ng sampaloc dun.. haha!

5. i've evolved into a complete IDIOT! kasi naman, hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko sa buhay ko, instead of looking for work, eto ako, sa harap ng PC, nagta-type ng kung anu-ano..hehe,, im sooooo bored!!!

THAT SONG..

2006-06-26T23:46:00.000+08:00

do you have any song that simply gets into your whole system once you hear it?
the type that makes you want to hear it over and over..
ung parang ginawa talaga siya para sayo...
every line.. every word.. all of it!
I think marami naman nakaka-relate dito eh..
girls and boys alike..

too bad.. wala pang available na lyrics online..
so I had to memorize na lang the chorus part..
and here it is..
the first single entitled "Mis Kol" from the debut album of a new local band "Craeons"

Isang mis kol mo lang
Ako'y nabubuhay sa isang pangarap
Kahit simple lang

Isang mis kol mo lang
Meron mang kabaduyan
Ngunit ito ang aking nararamdaman

wla lang..
I just can't help but smile everytime I see the video on Myx..
Nasasabi ko na lang sa sarili ko,, "Pucha, bakit ganun?"

24

2006-06-21T23:59:00.000+08:00

3.30 pm
1 missed call: Jade
That’s my signal, kelangan ko na umalis! At around 3:45 pm, nasa bus na kame..

5 pm
Arrived at UP
Stop over dapat sa may kiosk sa tapat ng MainLib kaso na-relocate na pala sila (at hindi namin alam ni Jade na nasa may gilid lang pala ng MainLib)
Leisure walk papuntang BA
- isang malakas na “Ngot!”. Hehe… si Kate R. pala… Kakatapos lang nila mag pack up ng RnR things sa Math kasama sina Kevin at Glecy. Salamat sa Boy Bawang ha.
Dropped by the CE tambayan
- andun sina Virge, Levs, Lubert, Dia, Alpha, Bong (na ipinakilala ang kanyang puppy na si COCO), dumating din si Ivan after some time

6 pm
Isaw Delight
- with Dia, Jade and Shany sa Ilang. (Dia made us semi-libre.. hehe..)
- kwentuhan galore just about anything and everything

7 pm
- went to AS to meet Sampelut
- got a glimpse of some Aguman peeps from afar

8 pm
- went to SM to surprise Jhae (she’s going to Virginia this Sunday morning.. huhu.)
- had dinner at El Pollo Loco (grrrr… the salsa was too hooooooot!)
- and yes Ate Joyce, bading sila! Haha..

9 pm
- had to go somewhere (the mall was closing na…)
- eenie meenie mayni mow: saang hotel tayo?
- Condo ni ____? (hindi pwede, brownout kame eh..) Kina ____? (Kakahiya naman, after all that’s happened) Si ___ nag-ooffer dati eh? (Eeeew, anywhere but there!) University Hotel? (mahal dun..) Fersal? (Pwede..) Anito? (Duh, Tel naman!)
- Finally, pinayagan ng landlady ni Dei na sa kanila kame magstay.. Whew!

10 pm
French fries at Bermonts
- kwentuhan galore again and some picture taking
11 pm
McDo Philcoa
- mag wiwithdraw sina Leah and Jhae
- Richard was there... Yihee…
- Leah would have made us libre CokeFloat but unfortunately, wala na daw available Sundae at that time
Jollibee Philcoa (malamang Philcoa diba?)
- we were hoping may Float dito, apparently, wala! Pati ice craze, wala!
- Last resort, ice cream sa Mercury Drug. We had a 1.9 liter Double Dutch and Chocolate Duet.

12 mn
Finally, nasa 20 Mahabagin Street (I’m not sure kung Teachers’ o UP village to eh..)
- nag ayos ayos muna ng konti, nagpalit ng damit ek ek
- then, kwentuhan galore for the Nth time… so many secrets revealed and mysteries unveiled… (I’ll probably be needing a new post for this topic..) wahaha..

2 am
Low batt na kame… need to rest na…

Around 8 am
Leah, Celine and Jhae had to go na. They have their own appointments.
After roughly 5 minutes, naligo na si Jade, tapos ako… then, iniwan na namin si Dei para makatulog na siya ng maayos.. Thanks Dei.. (don’t worry pagpe-pray ko ung mga mababait na taong un!)

9 am
Jade went to Quiapo to bring something to her sister, then umuwi na siya.
Ako? I don’t know where I’m headed. I texted my old roommate, Sey, and asked if she had a class para makapag seat in ako! Fortunately may class siya, 9-12. Unfortunately, hindi Engg ang class niya,, awww, sayang… hindi tuloy ako nakapaghanap ng boylets.. hehe.. ArtStud1 ang class niya. The prof came at around 9.30, buti nalang may break at nakatakas ako! Informative naman ung class eh, nakapag lecture nga ako eh.. haha..

10 am
I’m with Shany na. Sabi ko pasyal kame sa UP.. haha..
In the end, EconLib ang bagsak namin.. Shany introduced me to a new friend, Neil. He was so adorable. With a short span of time, nakapagkwento siya ng maraming chismis sa min… haha.. Kumusta naman? Si X at si Y daw nahuli ni Z na nagkikiss sa council room.. haha.. take note; X, Y, and Z are odd numbers.. hahaha..

11.30 am
Naglakad kame papuntang SC. Shany needs to buy an ID tag (for his ID, of course!)
I saw Gary. Wala lang.. Nakita ko siya… closeness… hehe…

12 nn
Mass na! Religious mode… (Lord, sana po makita ko si ___… haha.. Lord, joke lang po.)
Katext ko si Dia habang nagmamass… I thought makakuha ako ng pasalubong from her. hehe..

1 pm
After the mass, we decided to have lunch na. McDo Philcoa (coz Shany had those coupon thingy).

2 pm
I have to go home na. Dia and I went to SM. Dun na lang ako sasakay. Dia had to buy some things eh. So sabay na kame. Haaay, sa wakas, nakasakay din ng bus! Sana lang wag umulan!

3 pm
I’m at San Fernando na.. At oo, umulan! Leche, medyo lubog pa! Basta may lubog na part sa dinadaanan, buti na lang nakasakay ako kaagad ng dyip.. hehe.. I got home at around 3.30 pm. Nobody’s home.

4 pm onwards
Balik sa dating gawi – bum bum bum!

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ngayon ko lang na-realize ang sinasabi na Jack Bauer na so many thing can happen in 24 hours...

Snakes or Ladders?

2006-06-06T15:22:00.000+08:00

Would you rather be a snake and lurk for your prey?

Could you bear the consequences of killing innocent souls for your own delight?

With your slender body and keen reflexes, another ill-fated creature is surely doomed.

I wonder how you make it so easy. I guess it’s really what you’re good at. If snakes had their own company, you’d be the Chief Executive.

Or would you rather be a ladder and take people to higher grounds?

Could you accept the fact that you are able to bring other people to greater heights?

Does it give you enough pleasure?

Are you satisfied seeing them taking every step with you?

And when they reach the final step, they’re gone!

You are alone again. You may meet many footsteps, but at the end of the day, what you have are footprints only.

If you were given an opportunity, what would you be?

A snake or a ladder?

The wiser and naughtier part of me shouts “Snake!”.

Hmmm… I really don’t know.

I’ve met some snakes and some ladders. I’ve snaked and laddered some people too. Haha.

Snakes and ladders can be good friends. But they can also be worst enemies.

Words of advice: just be careful whom you deal with. It may seem an ordinary ladder on the outside but you never know if a snake is hiding beneath the surface.

R Ü 1 OF US?

2006-05-20T02:51:00.000+08:00

Elton John
Sir Elton John is one of pop music's great survivors. Born 25 March 1947 as Reginald Kenneth Dwight, he started to play the piano at the early age of four. At the age of 11 he won a scholarship to the Royal Academy of Music. He announced he was a bisexual in 1976 and in 1984 he married Renate Blauel (it lasted four years) before he finally came to terms with the fact that he was actually homosexual.
http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0005056/bio

Keanu Reeves
Keanu is a real melting pot of nationalities. Born (September 2, 1964) in Beirut to an English-born mother and half-Hawaiian, half-Chinese father. Keanu's mother Patricia met father Samuel Nowlin Reeves (Geologist) while she was working as a showgirl at a local club. A fat rumor in 1995 was his marriage with David Geffen, the entertainment guru. To the gay monthly Out magazine Keanu claimed not to know Geffen personally. In this issue on the front cover: "Keanu Reeves Sets the Record... uh, Straight". It has also been reported Geffen did have a personal assistant that looked similar to Keanu.
"I don't know why anyone cares [if I'm gay], and I don't know if it matters or not. I just, uh, I don't -- it's, you know, the whole aspect of coming out. I mean, there is a whole -- people, you know, who are gay [who] have decided that it can be -- that whole thing about calling people out -- and you have to share that, because there needs to be an equality and a lack of prejudice, and you need to have a voice, so, I mean, it's important, but I'm not involved in those dynamics and I have no point of view on it." --Keanu (USA Today)
http://keanuweb.com

Stephen Gately
As one fifth of Boyzone, Stephen Gately is a household name. Boyzone were one of the most successful boybands in history, who over seven years notched up no less than six number one singles, four number one albums and played to millions of fans the world over. Gately told The Sun he is in a relationship with Eloy de Jong, a 26-year-old singer with the Dutch boy band, Caught In The Act. He told the newspaper: "I wanted my fans to hear the facts from me and Eloy before anyone else got the chance to publish a twisted version of the truth.
http://www.stephengately.co.uk/
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/entertainment/370073.stm

Mark Feehily
Mark Michael Patrick Feehily was born in Sligo General Hospital on 28th May 1980. Mark still lives at home in Sligo with his parents, who also have two younger boys, Barry and Colin. He is the youngest member of Westlife. The 25-year-old pin-up said: "I want people to know the truth. I am gay and I'm very proud of who I am. Mark, who is in a relationship with singer Kevin McDaid, 21, said: "In the past I haven't felt the need to say anything about my sexuality.
http://markfeehily.org.uk
http://www.mirror.co.uk/news/tm_objectid=15873858&method=full&siteid=94762&headline=westlife-s-mark--i-m-gay--name_page.html

Dave Moffat
David Michael William Moffatt was born March 8, 1984 in Vancouver, British Columbia to Frank and Darlana Moffatt. Dave is a fraternal triplet, while his brothers Bob and Clint, who were born on the same date, are identical twins. Dave was born last, making him the youngest of the triplets. Dave was a member of the Canadian Pop/Rock band The Moffats. He played keyboard and sang lead and background vocals. In 2001, Dave came out as gay to his family. He left home and did not speak to his father for over a year. This effectively broke up The Moffatts as a band.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dave_Moffatt

It’s frustrating to see how a lot of gorgeous men finally decide to spread their wings and follow their hearts. Don’t get me wrong. I don’t have anything against gays. I’m just curious why they have to disguise for quite some time and then eventually reveal their true selves. It’s just disappointing to know that even the most masculine and tough guy you know now might be a different being in a year or so, or worse, they might have already evolved without letting you know.

My point is, if you have it in you, then flaunt it! Come out of your closet. There’s no wrong in being a gay. In fact, it’s so happy to be gay! I have a couple of gay friends and they are so cheerful and highly spirited. The world seems a little less complicated when I’m with them. They tell you what they really feel and not what you want to hear. They tell you when you’ve got split ends or when you look so haggard already. The society will eventually be able to accept that God didn’t only create men and women. As long as you are a law-abiding citizen and you live your life without stepping on other people, then I don’t see any problem regarding your gender.

I don’t get it why some men take years before they realize that they are really one of us. Are they afraid that the environment they are in won’t accept them? Are they anxious how their friends will react? Or maybe there are deeper reasons even them may not know.

Well, for me, I don’t see any reason why they should hide it. Just be yourself and God will do the rest.

NOSTALGiA

2006-05-19T23:23:00.000+08:00

I wonder what’s the real essence of loving when in the end, you’ll just find yourself being hurt and almost wanting to shut the whole world down. It’s crazy how some people say that love is the main thing that can make the world go round. When happy endings aren’t always easy to achieve, we fall and fall so many times before learning our lessons and eventually be tough. But in spite of all the pains that love can bring, people still can’t live without it. It’s true that when you love someone, you have to take so much risk. But in the end, you can always say that everything’s worth it. You may not be able to get the right love for you with just a snap of your finger, coz truly, love is better than that. So be not afraid to share your heart again. If it was once torn, go gather the old pieces and mend it. They say that time can heal all wounds and yes it can. It’s good to take a break but be sure that you won’t let your heart sleep for 10 years or even lock it inside your closet. Remember: Life’s too short to be nothing but happy.

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a text message from my old roommate, sey
19-05-2006 23:49:01

UPDATE...

2006-05-14T01:28:00.001+08:00

hello friends..
wala lang..
its been 23 days since my college graduation..
ano na ang nangyari sa kin? haha,,

well, wala naman masyado..
sa bahay lang ako..
gising.. kain.. nood tv.. text.. kain.. tulog..
ganun.. ganun lang..

namimiss ko na ang UP..
namimiss ko na ang Aguman at CE..
namimiss ko na ang mga friends ko..

so,, ano ba pinagkakaabalahan ko?
hmmm.. wala masyado.. hehe..
tumataba na nga ako eh..
wala akong maisip na bagong ipopost dito kaya update nalang sa buhay ko..

ay, meron naman palang exciting na pangyayari sa buhay ko!
nagkaroon ng ilang mga giyera..
hindi naman gaanong malakihan..
medyo saglit lang naman..
pero talagang mainit ang labanan..
haha..
pero naayos din naman agad eh..
hindi na nga kailangan ng matinong usapan eh..

ayun,, so far,, ganun ang buhay ko..
haaay,, kakabaliw..
kaya nga text lang ako ng text eh..
salamat sa globe..
pasensya na nga pala kung nafa-flood kayo ng mga forwarded texts ko.. haha...
pasensya na rin kung ayaw niyo ang mga sinesend ko.. wahaha..

ayun,, cge... hanggang dito nalang..

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huy chris, eto na.. basahin mo to ah... magcomment ka na rin.. lagi ka na lang "playing safe" eh,, haha..

TXTM8S part II

2006-05-06T00:02:00.000+08:00

Ahehe, kasi naman ung pagtetext niya, hindi mo mapipigilan yun, kasi hindi mo hawak kung ano iniisip niya, it’s up to you kung paano ka mag-aadjust kapag nagparamdam na siya. Ahehe, dedmahin mo lang ang mokong na yun. Tska huwag na huwag mong ipapakitang gusto mo rin cya kasi sasamantalahin nun. Cge ka, in the end, baka ikaw din masaktan.

- wooooooow! Galing mo namang mag-advise… Sana maayos mo na rin ang problema niyo ng girlfriend mo, diba?

I agree. It's really hard.. It's like your favorite cute puppy whom you love so much and keeps on following you.. Kaso, si cute puppy may rabies.. Cute puppy will surely bite. It's rabies will makeyou sick.. It might even kill you.. So you have no choice but to tie him up or put him in a cage so you can walk away from naughty puppy.. kahit mahirap.

- Hayop sa analogy ah… Galing naman… I guess, nakaka-relate ka noh? Wahaha.. Pareho lang tayo ng sitwasyon dati.. ikaw nga lang ung cute puppy.. Haha.. Bad puppy noh.. How I wish I can enjoy being free, knowing that he’s there, a cute li’l puppy, away from me.. I’ll be willing to get rabies if it makes him happy.. Waaaaaah!

Ala. Ali pa man ku byasa ah? Dakal pa ku buri abalu. Hay. Kunwari pin ku. Pero ali talaga byasa. Cge. Sasamasan ku.

- wahaha! Hindi mo lang alam kung gaano mo mapapasaya ang libo-libong Kapampangan sa mensaheng ito!

Kaya lalong nagiging chickboy ang mga chickboy kasi may mga willing maging kabit.. oooops! Sori.. beep beep.. If you let them play with you, they will. As long as they are not forced to choose only one, they won’t. As long as you give them a shallow perception of love, they won’t dig deeper for love’s truest sense.

- very well said.. bravo! Haaay.. how sad.. huhu..

Jek, ano ba sabi mo kay Gian? May GF ako? Tinatanong nako ngayon pero hindi ko sinasagot.

- Ay, kamusta naman yan?! Bat di pa kasi sabihin ang totoo…? Yan tuloy, na-wrongsend ka pa! Wahahaha…

Which goes to show how much you love him, ahehe. On paper, bagay kayo, swerte siya sayo eh.. Pero sa totoo lang, dot dot dot…

- haaaay naku.. tigilan na natin to!

Sima-NGOT. Asu- NGOT. Pi- NGOT. Busa- NGOT. Ngu- NGOT. Alima- NGOT. Hunya- NGOT. Kandunga- NGOT. Bi- NGOT. La- NGOT. Tange- NGOT. Kula- NGOT. Bangu- NGOT. They may contain your name but nothing compares to the sweet and funny NGOT I know..

- wushu.. Personalized quote! San ka pa? Super thanks ha…

Holding anger is a poison. It eats you from the inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harms us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves too. Live a life of happiness. Be hatred-free.

- medyo naiiba to dahil quote siya.. wala lang.. ang ganda lang kasi ng thought.. magmahalan tayong lahat.. wahaha!

Anu kaya ung mga bagay na kinalat mo na bumalik sayo? In short, sinabihan ka ng bagay na sayo nagsimula at pinagkalat mo. Haha. Asteg un..

- haha.. bahala ka sa buhay mo..

IT COMES IN THREEs

2006-04-28T23:40:00.000+08:00

Numbah One aka Bukang-Liwayway

I really had a crush on you because you are cute. I never regret getting to know you and being closer to you than I thought I would be. Maybe it wasn’t really meant to be. Like I’ve said, “walang chemistry”. More than sheer feelings, I believe that pressures from the org and our common friends played a major role. But it was really nice to know a mysterious and deep-thinking guy like you. You deserve to be happy.

Numbah Two aka PPP

You were just a dream that I once knew. English 30 was a blessing in disguise. Kapampangan diay ka. Sa pagsugod nato og text, kumosta naman to?! Pareha diay tag gibati sa usag usa. Pero nagdesisyon ka – acad mode. Kaisog nimo, pero para nako tama ang plano nimo. Salamat. Pag ayoayo kung usa man galing imong makab-ot. Unta malipayun ka kung unsa man ang madawat nimo karun.

Numbah Three aka Pablo Pabling

Sie bezaubern. Eine typischer Junge folgene Tür. Sie sind ein Flirt und also sind ich. Das ist,waruw wir nah wurden Ich wirklich verstehe nicht, was wir hatten, oder wenn wir sogar etwas hatten. Jede Weise, danke ich Ihnen. Danke für das Bilden mich des Gefüls gut. Es sein rüber jetzt. Das Leben geht weiter. Lassen Sif uns anbewegen. Gutes Glück auf allen Ihnen Bemähungen. Ich hoffe, daβ Sie glücklich sind. Ich bin für Sie glücklich. Auf Wiedersehen.

Kris Aquino once said that everything comes in threes. Hmmm… totoo kaya un? Oh well, whatever.

Numbah Four aka Where the hell have you been?

I’m not expecting you to be the ONE. Hello? Numbah FOUR ka nga eh, so you can’t be the ONE. Haha. I’ll be waiting for you. Come out, come out wherever you are.

Nasaan ka?

Mahahanap din kita…

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Dakal salamat kang Divine ampong Lubert…

TANGA

2006-04-25T00:24:00.000+08:00

Naranasan mo na bang mag-mukhang tanga?

Yung tipong, akala mo ay okay ang lahat, pero hindi pala.
Akala mo tama ang ginagawa mo, pero mali pala.
Akala mo totoo siya, pero peke pala.
Akala mo alam mo ang lahat, pero wala ka palang kamalay-malay.
Akala mo kontrolado mo ang mga nangyayari, pero ikaw pala ang kinokontrol.
Akala mo kakampi siya, pero kalaban pala.

O kaya nama’y ginawa mo na bang tanga ang isang tao?

Yung tipong, may alam ka, pero hindi ka nagsasalita.
Akala niya kilala ka niya, pero hindi pala.
Akala niya tapat ka sa kanya, pero traydor ka pala.
Akala niya wala kang alam, pero alam mo ang lahat.
Akala niya kaibigan ka, pero kaaway pala.

Haaaay.. wala lang.. I’ve experienced both eh.. hehe.. Masakit mag-mukhang tanga. At mahirap namang gawing tanga ang isang tao lalo na kung wala kang masamang intensyon.

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uy, wala akong pinapatamaan dito ha.. pero syempre, hindi ‘to out of the blue.. it’s definitely something.. hehe.. sa mga paranoid diyan, wag kayong mag-isip ng kung anu-ano ha.. hehe.. wala lang akong magawa..

HAAAY NAKA-GRADUATE DIN!

2006-04-22T23:36:00.000+08:00

wahaha... naka-graduate din.. huhuhu.. mamimiss ko ang UP!

ARTSY FARTSY

2006-04-22T14:44:00.000+08:00

TXTM8S

2006-04-22T14:28:00.000+08:00

Hi.. Wala lang.. Gagayahin ko lang yung mga iba na naglalagay ng text messages sa blog.. Hehe..

Some texts have been Tagalized for the benefit of the non-Kapampangans, para na rin hindi mahirapan ang mga nagmamarunong mag-Kapampangan.. Haha..

“Ayun, sinasaktan namin ang isa’t isa.. Tumawag siya minsan ng 2 am pero halos hindi siya makapagsalita.. Sabi niya namimiss daw niya ko.. Sabi ko naman ang lakas ng loob niya, tama na ang laro.. Magseryoso na siya dapat.. Ayun, feeling ko nahurt siya.. Thursday last week nagtext kame pero medyo cold na kami.. Nung Sunday nagsend siya ng quote, hindi ako nagreply.. Pero namimiss ko na siya ng sobra!”

- ganon? Haay, hindi ko alam sa inyo.. Sige pagsasabihan ko siya.. haha.. Pero that was a brave thing for you to do ah.. Nagawa ko na rin yata yan.. yata.. haha..

"Tama ka diyan ngot. At masaya talaga ako na naka-jive ko kayo. Kahit maikling panahon lang tayong nagkakilala. At kahit sobrang makulit ka, labs kita. (One time ko lang to sasabihin). Wahaha.”

- haha.. alam ko namang hanggang kaibigan lang ako.. wahaha..

“I expected better judgment from him, cos I know he knows what to do after what has happened before.. And one more thing, affected ako kapag may sinasabi silang masama about sa kanya like ‘yiih, ang yabang niya, ang landi niya, blah blah’.. Ako naman pinagtatanggol ko siya, ‘hinde, okay siya.. ganito lang yan,,, blah blah’.. Ako nga mismo ayaw ko siya dati diba? And now it seems people were right, and that sucks!”

-haaay.. Life is really unpredictable.. oh well, I’m not in a position to preach about trust and friendship, hehe.. Basta, life is what you make it! It’s your call..

“Bakit hindi ka na nagtext? ;-( pinabayaan mo kong nag-isip buong gabi kung ano ginawa ko sayo..”

- wushu.. nag-isip ka nga ba buong gabi?

“I just realized how stupid I was to even cry over *toot*. Holler I’m too pretty for him.”

- hay naku.. mahahanap mo rin ang para sa yo..

“Alangan namang mag-give in na naman ako sa ka-sweetan niya knowing na sila na naman ng GF nya.. Kung maniniwala ako, masyado nakong tanga diba?”

- parang naririnig ko ang sarili ko ah.. haha.. kaya mo yan! Konting tiis.. mahirap pero it’s for your own good..

“Ngot, hindi lang ikaw ang issue. Kung iisipin mo, minor issue lang ang sa yo. Meron bigger at mas importanteng issue na implied. Sa aming dalawa na lang yun, at wala ka ng kinalaman dun.”

- haha.. this is so funny.. Wala namang issue diba? Haha..

“Bigyan mo naman ako ng words of wisdom!Ü para makapag move-on nako.”

- haha.. okay ka lang? Sa kin ka pa nagtanong!

“Epal ako, mr. Know-it-all, mahilig makialam sa mga buhay buhay. Ano pa ba? So, sori for that. I thot I was just helping out. So from now on, bahala na kayo. Buhay niyo yan eh. Gusto niyong maglokohan? Fine, be my guest. Wala namang mawawala sa kin kung pababayaan ko kayo eh.”

- haha.. ang sarap balikan ng nakaraan.. tingnan mo nga naman noh.. parang kelan lang.. haha..

“Na-wrongsend ako sa kanya.. Eto pakisabi sa kanya na humihingi ako ng pasensya sa gulo.. Pati na rin sa yo.. Hayaan mo na ang previous text message ko..”

-yihee.. ayaw mo ba ulit pasabi yan ngayon sa kanya? haha..

“oo naman. Ganun kta kamahal. Nga pla, di q nabilang eh. Pero ang dami mo ng mura sa kin. Salamat. Uy cge na. Tatakas na tlga q.”

- eh di sana minura mo na din ako.. lumaban ka naman! Ah oo nga pla, mahal mo pala ako kaya hindi mo magawa un.. Haha..

“Hi! Musta?” or “Ui,musta?”

- yan… yan ang mga tipong nagbibigay sa kin ng panandaliang kahibangan.. In English, 5-minute emotional highs.. Wahaha..

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haha.. guess who?! If u think isa kayo sa mga nagsabi nyan sa kin, mag comment na! Wag ka nag mahiya.. cge lang.. haha..

Lyrics Galore.. Sing with me y'all..

2006-04-22T14:20:00.000+08:00

"I'm alive, I'm in love, you complete me. And I've never been here before."

- Unbelievable, Craig David

"Shame on you if you fooled me once, shame on me if you fooled me twice. You've been a pretty hard case to crack. I should've known better but I didn't and I can't go back."

- Life Goes On, LeAnn Rimes

"In this world there's real and make-believe. This seems real to me."

- Let Me Go, 3 Doors Down

"I'm sinking slowly, so hurry hold me. Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on."

- All You Wanted, Michelle Branch

"It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right. I hope you had the time of your life."

- Time of your life (Good Riddance), Green Day

"I was damaged by the fall. Got the wind knocked out of me. To be standing here at all, I must be invincible."

- Invincible, Christian Bautista

"I never thought to ask you. I always thought you knew. It was never my intention to question you."

- Unforgetful You, Jars of Clay

"There's gotta be more to life than chasing out every temporary high to satisfy me."

- More to Life, Stacie Orrico

"I was wrong when I hurt you. Did you have to hurt me too?"

- The Past, revived by Jed Madela

"I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness. And all of the real people are not real at all."

- Try, Nelly Furtado

“Coz I want nothing more than to sit outside your door and listen to you breathing. That’s where I wanna be.”

- Breathing, Lifehouse

“It’s not always rainbows and butterflies, it’s compromise that moves us along.”

- She Will Be Loved, Maroon 5

“Where is the man of my dreams? I’ll wait forever, how silly it seems.”

- Where are you?, Natalie feat. Justin Roman

"Underneath the guise of smile gradually I'm dying inside..."

- Breakdown, Mariah Carey feat. Bone Thugs ‘N Harmony

“You didn’t know that NO don’t mean YES, it means NO.”

- Beep, Pussycat Dolls

GREENER THAN GREEN

2006-04-20T23:39:00.000+08:00

Haaay.. Wala lang.. It’s nice to see you again. Kahit puro tawanan at gaguhan lang tayo. Nakakatuwa lang. Buti na lang at hindi tayo nanood ng movie kasi mas nakapag-usap tayo sa Panaderong Pranses.. Haha.. Kumusta naman ang mga issues? Haha.. Hmm.. Parang hindi na yata tayo magkikita ulit ah.. Next time, sa SM Pampanga naman.. Para maiba.. Lagi na lang diyan eh.. Tsaka unfair sa amin.. Haha..

To Joseph: Itext mo na kasi.. Haha.. Muntik mo na kaming maloko ah.. Nalungkot pa man din ako for you.. Buti na lang pakialamera ako.. Haha.. Mamimiss ko ang mga “points” mo.. Haha.. Salamat sa lahat lahat.. Alam ko namang labs mo ko eh.. Wag kang masyadong mag-isip tungkol sa mga bagay-bagay ha.. The truth will set us free.. Haha.. Mag concentrate ka na lang sa Law.. Pro bono ha?!

To Ashley: I’m giving you the privilege na magsabi sa kanya.. Haha.. Wag kang masyadong defensive! Wag ka na lang mag explain kung hindi consistent ang mga sasabihin mo, lalo ka lang naiipit eh.. Haha.. Aminin na kasi.. Mag-reply ka na agad sa mga tao ha, wag mo ng hintayin ang 24 hours.. Hehe.. Keep on calling!

To Darrel: Alam mo na ba ang spelling ng TRUST? Haha.. Mag tag ka naman diyan sa tagboard ko.. At sana naman alisin mo na ang pagka-offline ko! May pang-asar na ulit ako sa yo.. Pero next time na lang.. Wala ako sa mood makipag-away ngayon eh.. Mag unlimited ka na kasi sa Globe..

To Aileen: Hmmm… Wala naman akong masasabi sa yo eh.. Haha.. Tsaka hindi mo naman mababasa to.. Haha.. Job hunting na tayo ha!

To Shane: Too bad hindi ka nakasama.. Hehe.. Marami kang na-miss.. Haha.. See you soon!

Sheeet! Two days na lang before graduation! Huhu.. Goodbye college life.. Goodbye UP.. Welcome to the real world.. Haaaay..

WHÖLLY WěăK

2006-04-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

April 9-15, 2006

Palm Sunday

Wala lang. I don’t remember doing something fruitful this day. Malamang it was just a typical vacation day for me. Late ng gising. Kain lunch. Nood TV. Yun lang. Oh yeah I remember watching S-FILES and THE BUZZ. Chismis galore. Ayun, 9 months na palang married sina Kris at James. Hehe. Then at night, I went online – checked my mail, friendster, forums, my blog, others’ blogs and YM. Text galore din pala ako this day dahil malapit ng mag expire ang Globe Unlimitxt ko.

Holy Monday

Haha. Wala rin akong nagawang matino and “holy” this day. The usual routine – gising-kain-ligo-nood TV-tulog. But this time, I did some form of self-restraint – no Internet, no texts, no telephone. Buti na lang at nag expire na ang Unlimitxt ko. Hehe. Pero nakakainis dahil until now hindi pa rin ako makapag-register. Haaay… kaya tuloy puro miscol lang ako sa mga friends. Huhu.

Holy Tuesday

Haaay… another boring day! I watched “The Waiting Room” – a Holy Week presentation of GMA7. In fairness, it was good naman. It’s about having second chances in life. Nakapag-contemplate tuloy ako sa buhay ko. (Yaaak may ganon?!) Hehe. Ayun, other than that, it’s the same old routine pa rin. Ay I forgot pala, I am taking BIOFITEA (green tea chorva) these past 2 weeks, kaya kasama rin sa daily routine ko ang lose bowel movement. Minsan nga middle of the night siya nananawagan eh, minsan naman very early in the morning. Oh well, okay lang, nakakapayat naman eh. Harhar. Medyo maaga ako natulog dahil nga wala naman ako gagawin. Nagpa-miscol muna ko sa mga friends ko para sabihin (impliedly) na “gudnyt”. May isang masugid naman na magrereply ng “güdnyt ngot!”. Thanks Chris, I really appreciate that. Hehe.

Holy Wednesday

Guess what?! Oh yes, another boring day! Haaay… as in wala akong magawa aside from my daily activities. Minsan nga bigla na lang akong nakakatulog eh. It’s only my brother (Vlad), my neice (Mae) and me sa house kaya super wala kaming magawa.

Maundy Thursday

It’s a holiday. Yippee! Aalis kame! We went to our relatives at San Luis. Ayun, nangumusta lang. Kumain. Bumisita sa mga tito, tita, lola at mga pinsan. It was nice to see them kasi seldom lang talaga kami umuuwi dun (pag may occasion lang – fiesta, Christmas, birthday, Halloween at Holy Week). 10am to 6pm kaming wala sa bahay. O diba? Ice breaker sa aking napaka-boring na Holy Week. Hehe.

Good Friday

It’s Shelah’s 21^st birthday (my friend back in high school). Wala lang. This day is a bit exciting for me because we’re going swimming! Yippee! Pero dito lang sa tabi-tabi, a nearby resort na itago na lang natin sa pangalang Burak-Ay! Hehe. We thought there would be fewer people because it’s Good Friday. But no, marami pa rin. Kainis. Hindi man lang ako nakapag-swim nang maayos. I wasn’t able to fully utilize the swimming lessons I’ve learned last summer. Oh well, that’s life. Huhu. Ayun, we went home at around 8 pm. Nothing much happened after that.

Black Saturday

I thought it would be another boring day because I don’t have any concrete plan of action. But surprisingly, Tel, Kring and I went to SM. Ipapa-reformat namin yung laptop ni Sha. Na-virus kasi namin ni Jade. Hehe. Ayun, around 10:30 am ako sinundo tapos around 11 am nasa SM na kami. At kamusta naman ang parking? Siguro 30 minutes kaming nag-roadtrip sa parking lot. Haha. Tapos, we went to Compex para nga ipagawa yung laptop. Luckily, kapit-bahay pala nina Tel yung isang technician/computer chorva dun, and he was willing to do the job for FREE. Pero syempre bibigyan pa rin namin siya kahit magkano lang. Eh 3 pm pa daw makukuha, so we ate lunch muna at Greenwich and Tel bought a blouse sa Department Store. After that, mga past 1 pm, we went to St. Jude – straight to Kuya Rex’s house, may gagawin kasing video presentation si Tel. So yun, until around 6 pm kami dun. Imagine that?! Hehe. Todo bonding nga kami ni Kuya Rex eh. Ang sarap mag-reminisce ng mga memories. Haha. Super sweet nga kame eh. Hahaha. Baka nga daw kami ang magkatuluyan in the end. Hahaha. He even created a new blog for me sa blogspot (http://ngotty.blogspot.com). Hehe. Wala lang. Nakakatuwa lang. Para kaming sira ulo. Kasi parang last week lang eh gusto niya kong patayin. Haha. Tapos ngayon super chummy kame?! Kamusta naman yun? Hahaha. Ginawan niya pa kame ng ice-cold coffee na mala-Starbucks ang lasa. Hehe. How sweet noh? Ayun, nang matapos na nina Tel and Kring ang ginagawa nila, umalis na kami, it’s getting late na rin eh. Oh well, magkikita kami ulit ni Kuya Rex bukas, may kainan kasi kina Mike eh. Haha. Hmmm… We’re getting too close na ha. Harhar.

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Ayun, nga pala, the purpose of this post is to assess my Holy Week. For me, I didn’t spend it in a special way. Parang wala lang. The title says it all. It’s been Wholly Weak. Haaaay.. sorry Lord. Hehe.

PLUGGiNG

2006-04-10T13:49:00.000+08:00

hi..
well.. i really don't have something to say for now..
nothing's been going on with my life these past few days..
oh shet..
wala akong magawa..
im super duper bored..
haaay..
buti naman you have time pa to read this nonsense blog? hehe..
anyways, if you have time, kindly visit my friend's blog:

http://shanpotpot.blogs.friendster.com/my_blog/2005/09/but_karma_must_.html

i can relate to his post entitled "But karma must be starting to take its toll on me"
so you might want to check it out.. hehe..

you could also try reading the rest of his posts..
he's a good writer, madrama yan.. hehe..
gays have always been really good in writing..
wala lang, almost all my gay friends are.. hehe..
well, sige, for shany's sake, hindi daw siya gay,
bisexual daw.. ok pagbigyan.. hehe.. love u shany!

hi shany, ok lang naman syo na i-plug ko blog mo diba?
i mean you don't care naman right?

hehe..

so there..
nothing mushy for now..
silent mode eh.. hehe..

AHMIRA

2006-04-04T12:41:00.000+08:00

Ahmira was my high school classmate at SSA. Ngayon ko lang siya naka-text, around October lang yata. Thanks to Globe Unlimitxt. I really appreciate her text messages. Most of them are very mushy and emotional. Sometimes nga they come just in time. If I were to write all her text messages here, aba, eh baka maubusan ng webspace. Hehe. So far, the one below is the most touching text message I received from her.

Ahmira

25-03-06 10:28:42 pm

Giving up?

Yes, I guess I am.

It’s not that I don’t care anymore.

I just can’t continue loving you and at the same time hurting myself.

I’m just too stupid to even fall for you.. too tired.. too wounded.

Giving up?

Yes, I think I should.

Coz there’s just no difference at all.

I’ve wasted my time and disregarded my health for your little time.

There’s just nothing left in me except for my pride, now that I am almost done with you and with this absurdity.

Giving up?

Suppose I do?

Would you even bother stopping me?

Guess “No”.

I’ve waited all this time for you to realize that I’m all you ever needed, yet you closed every chance and possibility.

Now I’m thinking what’s with her that you don’t see in me?

If I give up, then I’ll be free from you but definitely not away from your shadows.

Too bad but I have to bear the pain by myself.

I’m giving up what is still left unsaid.

APRIL FOOL'S DAY

2006-04-02T15:37:00.000+08:00

Hello Philippines
and Hello World!

Kumusta naman ang April Fool’s Day niyo?

Ako? Haay grabe..

FOOLED TO THE MAX!

April 1, 2006

Around 9:30 am

Text message: Guys, Bogart met an accident, dead on arrival. Pls pray 4 him.

*I’m not sure about the exact words but it has the same thought.

It so happened that three of my close friends and I were together.

We were all shocked and didn’t know what to do.

Questions came pouring in like “Bogart who?”, “Is he really dead?” or “How did it happen?”.

Shit! As in malaking SHIT!

This can’t be happening I told myself.

I called his buddy Gustavo. “Hello”, he answered.

“O, what happened to Bogart?”

“Huh? What?”

“Fulgencio texted everyone that he met an accident and was dead on arrival.”

“Whaaat? *&%$! %#&%@##&. Sige. Bye.”

So there, we’re still clueless about what happened.

Next on my list of “things to do”: call Bogart.

Ring. Ring. Ring.

Shit. He’s not answering.

Finally, after a couple of rings, somebody answered. “Hello, o what?”

“Bogart?”

“O?”

At the back of my mind, I wanted to ask, “You’re alive?”

But all I said was, “Oh okay, wala lang. Sige. Bye.”

So there, we texted Fulgencio and asked him what really happened.

He replied, “It’s not true. Joke lang. Happy April Fool’s Day!”

*Again, I’m not sure about the exact words.

Shit. As in BULLSHIT! It’s the shittiest thing that anyone can do!

Oh well, maybe I’m just over reacting.

But no… It wasn’t really a nice joke. Things like that should not be the object of jokes.

It’s not funny. So not funny.

I hope everyone else who were “fooled” share the same sentiments as mine.

To Fulgencio: You know how I felt naman diba? I just didn’t really expect it from you. You said you are willing to gladly face the consequences of your action, right? Well, good luck.

*Now I’m sure that these were the exact words.

To Gustavo: Haaay… Damn… Good thing we didn’t suffer a heart attack! Thanks for your concern.

To Bogart: I’m glad you’re alive. What were you thinking?! That was not a nice joke!

To all those who were “fooled”: Hello. Kumusta naman kayo jan?

COULD IT BE ANY HARDER?

2006-03-24T18:11:00.000+08:00

a text message from ABBY C.

22-03-06 11:04:43 pm

9 hardest times of your life

1. being questioned when you yourself dont understand
2. pretending to be innocent of what you know about
3. trying to forget something you know you never will
4. admitting you were wrong after you have been so insistent that you were right
5. debating with yourself
6. accepting the fact that some things are not meant to be
7. trying to understand when you just cant
8. realizing that you have been tricked after you have given your whole trust
9. parting and letting go of someone you have loved all your life

_____________

nice noh? and to make things harder, i'l add something..

the 10th hardest time of life...

..when everything seems clear

yet you pretend not to see coz you've been blinded,

but still you're happy..

~~~~and hirap nun noh? hehe.. ang drama ko noh? pasensya..

Last day na lang BINGO ka pa!

2006-03-22T18:10:00.000+08:00

Once is enough, twice is too much, thrice is stupidity!

Strike 1, 2, 3 to positive infinity… what more could I ask for?!

Shet, as in malaking SHEEEEEEEET!

Haay..

Wrong decision..

Wrong type of words..

Wrong timing..

Wrong counter-argument..

Everything was wrong..

Pucha!

Kung kelan mo least expected, dun pa mangyayari..

Ang galing ko nga naman talaga..

Haaaay.. Pakshet..

Well, it was my fault naman talaga eh..

The usual insensitive and self-centered me..

Haay.. Grrrrr…

I want to cry.. Well, I cried already..

And now, tears are starting to form behind my eyes again..

Pero, no I won’t..

It would be useless..

Well, I just wanted to write something here eh..

I have no plan of getting out of this mess

Coz I CAN’T!

Even if I want to, I just can’t...

Wala ng lusot to eh..

The more I argue, the messier it gets..

The more I think about it, the worse it gets..

The more I try to get out, the more I sink in..

It’s a dead end..

I’m dead..

Again.. As usual..

Well yeah, I was wrong..

I’m sorry.. Yeah I know the damage has been done..

But all I could do talaga is say “IM SORRY”..

I’m not really sure how it’s going to end

Or if it will end at all..

I hope it will.. I know it will..

We’ve been through a lot diba?!..

We can do this.. C’mon let’s do this!

Thank you for being honest..

At least I know how you feel.. or felt.. (sana felt na lang.. hehe..)

Again, I’m really really really sorry..

“Why do we never know what we’ve got til it’s gone?”

STUPIDITY killed the cat too

2006-03-22T18:06:00.000+08:00

I don’t know what’s in you..

I don’t know what’s in me..

I’m not sure about your intentions..

I don’t care at all..

I’m not sure about my emotions..

I don’t want to think about it..

You are a guy.. A typical boy-next-door..

I am a girl.. Juvenile and stupid..

I never minded calling you a child..
Well I guess that's how you acted all the while..

You are charming.. No questions asked..

You painted me a picture and showed me how to see..

In my eyes, you do no wrong
And I believe in you

I’ve been blinded.. But my mind can see..

I don’t know what to do.. Do you?

I’m starting to doubt and question you as well as myself..

In this world, there’s real and make-believe..

This seems real to me..

I am afraid to know the truth..

And I don’t know why..

I’m contented with a five-minute emotional high..

And it’s exactly what you give me..

Without me, your world will go on turning..

A world that's full of happiness that I have never known..

Yeah, I’m contented with that..

Stupid me..

And you know what scares me, I’m getting used to it..

But then again, I am happy..

Stupid stupid stupid me!

Do you know what kills me?

The feeling that I just couldn’t hate you..

I would love to hate you..

But I hate myself more for not being able to..

And after all is said and done
You're still you

Thank you for a myriad of unknown reasons..

And now I curse you for being so sweet and so kind

And I can’t get you out of my dreams

Now I know that you’re a dangerous kind

And your smile is tattooed on my mind

I’d be a fool if I couldn’t see

How things have changed between you and me

Maybe we tried just a little too hard

And now we are strangers again

And now, what happens next?

Coz I am hanging on every word you say

Coz I want nothing more than sit outside heaven’s door

And listen to you breathing.. That’s where I wanna be..

_________________

I’m sorry I had to write this..

I just needed to let it out..

Yeah, I’m so pathetic..

I know you’ll know it’s you I’m talking about..

And yes, it’s you..

Shame on me.. Stupid me..

What is wrong with thee?

2006-03-19T18:04:00.000+08:00

let me count the ways..

1. you just can't stop thinking. (sometimes it helps a lot when u do not think at all)

2. you are in denial. (of which i do not know)

3. you want to know everything. (which is really impossible)

4. you think you know everything. (think again)

5. you say you are the victim. (you victimized yourself)

6. you said it's over. (what happens next?)

7. you go on with your life as if nothing happened. (then again, not so)

8. you just can't keep a secret. (shame on you [and on me too])

9. you end up in this situation. (who do you blame?)

10. you are so good. (bravo!)

I love him but everyday I'm learning

2006-03-11T17:56:00.000+08:00

ever heard of the song ON MY OWN?

yeah it's that song by lea salonga..

if i'm not mistaken, it goes way back way when i was in high school pa..

and i was so stupid to not realize the true meaning of this song..

gosh, i accidentally heard the song from my friends pc, and damn, i loved it..

it's rhythm, the lyrics, everything about it!

i guess, nakaka-relate ako sa lyrics, haha..

ang sad pala ng song.. so sad..

loving someone on your own is such a sad sad situation..

pero i understand, sometimes kasi, you just love the person so much that it's ok if he doesn't love you back.. coz in love, you should not ask for something in return.. you just do..

hehe.. yikes.. corny..

basta, i love this song..

here goes my favorite part..

i love him but everyday i'm learning

all my life i've only been pretending

without me, his world will go on turning

a world that's full of happiness that i have never known

Year of the Dog

2006-01-06T17:55:00.000+08:00

am i that bad last year para parusahan ako ng ganito?

haay ewan ko ba?

everything is wrong..

everything sucks..

ngayon ko lang na-feel ang ganito sa buong buhay ko..

un bang parang gusto ko ng maglaho..

shit tlga.. bakeeeeeeet?

why oh why are these things happening?

haaay.. nakakapagod mag-isip..

eto na pla ang karma.. pero bakit sobra naman yata,,

haay ewan ko tlga..

TIGANG?!

2005-12-07T01:31:00.000+08:00

Haay naku… bakit ganyan ang buhay ko? Lagi na lang sawi… un bang tingin mo ay ok na ang lahat, then it turns out na everything is just a big big lie! Dun pa sa puntong akala mo ay yun na, un bang nsa climax ka na, tapos, bigla ka na lang babagsak.. dahan- dahan, sumasakit lalo habang tumatagal, hanggang sa wala ka nang maramdaman, manhid ka na.. Ewan ko ba, bitter na yata ako! Nawawalan na ko ng pag-asa.. Lalo na ngayon, valentine’s na! So?! As if naman may lakad ako diba? Matutulog na lang ako.. baka mapanaginipan ko pa si Lester.. konting panahon na lang ang natitira sa kin.. Kailangan ko nang mag-“da moves”, or else, tigang na tlga ko forever! Peste naman oh.. Si Lester na lang ang natitira sa kin, iniwan na nila kong lahat! Si Lester ang nakakapagpasaya sa akin every MTTHF.. blockmate ko kc cya, as in classmate sa lahat ng subjects! Astig noh? Kaya nga may inspirasyon akong pumasok araw-araw.. yun bang hindi na ko nakakapag-concentrate sa lesson dahil nakatitig na lang ako sa kanya.. ang bawat galaw niya, ang bawat sabihin niya, lahat un hindi ko pinapalampas! Favorite subject ko nga ngayon ang marketing, kc nakaupo ako sa likod niya.. so close talaga!! Halos nasa kanya na lahat ng hinahanap ng isang magandang babaeng tulad ko.. Matalino, mayaman, mabait, responsable, seryoso sa buhay at oh-so super gwapo to the highest level, macho pa!! Nga pla, full-blooded Chinese cya.. kaso, nasobrahan yata cya sa pagkaseryoso, yun bang wala na cyang time para mag-enjoy.. Napansin ko kc, wla cyang permanent friends sa college namen.. pero may mga kakilala naman cya.. in fact,may org nga cya dun eh.. kaso talagang aloof cya ng konti sa mga tao.. un bang before and after classes namen eh naka-iPod lang cya.. wla cyang kasabay maglakad pag-uwian na, may wheels kc eh.. maybe that’s why he never had a girlfriend! hindi ko lang alam kung bakit, pero malakas ang kutob ko na may soft side naman cya.. tumatawa naman cya kapag may nagjojoke, ang cute cute nga niya eh.. may mga anggulo nga palang kamukha niya si Carlo (Lovers in Paris).. sabi ni Lester dun sa isang kakilala ko, “It’s better to be feared than to be loved”. Duh? Ang corny naman niya! Isang napakalaking challenge ni Lester para sa kin.. para cyang problem set na hindi mo alam kung anong formula ang gagamitin.. para cyang case na mahirap simulan dahil hindi mo alam kung ano ang case problem.. para cyang exam na mahirap i-perfect kase wala kang lecture notes.. haaaay.. pero kahit ganyan ka-complicated si Lester, mahal ko yan.. I cherish every moment we spend together.. naks! Parang kami na noh?! Hehe.. Feeling ko talaga, may crush dn cya skn, hindi lang cya aware! Na-touch talaga ko nung 1st tym niya kong itxt.. take note: correct spelling pa ang name ko.. in fairness! Sabi niya “HI, IS THIS BIANCA?” oh davah? Kakakilig to the fishbones! Tapos, eto pa ang isa, “HI NGOTTY.. WE DON’T HAVE CLASS SA 104, BUT WE MEET AT 2PM TO FINALIZE EVERYTHING”. Grupm8 ko kc cya.. pero,halleeeeer? Hindi naman niya ko tntxt dati pag wla kmi clas, tska bkt cya pa mag-iinform skn?! Last sem pa nangyari ang mga to.. pero mas nakakakilig ang happenings this sem! As in! Pag nagkakasalubong kami sa corridor, nagpapansinan kami, eye contact lang with pacute na smile and hand gesture, walang verbal communication, it’s our hearts that speak.. sa marketing class, nakatitig lang ako sa kanya, lalo na sa cute niyang pulu-pulo.. iba kc ang sa kanya, basta hindi ko ma-explain.. ang gwapo-gwapo niya lalo na pag naka-black cya.. nagmumukha kc cyang macho lalo, tska ang puti-puti niya.. tapos nung minsan, tinawag niya ko, “NGOTTY, NGOTTY PAABOT NUNG BOLPEN”. Grabe, masaya nako nun.. the mere fact na tinawag niya ang name ko twice.. ginagawa ko na ang lahat ng kahihiyan sa marketing namen tuwing may group activities kami para lang makuha ko ang atensyon niya.. as in kung anu-ano na ang pinag-gagagawa ko para lang mapansin niya ko.. hindi ko nga lang alam kung effective. Haaaay ang pathetic ko noh? Pero ok na ang ganun sakin.. kilala ko kc sarili ko, baka pag nagustuhan niya ko, eh ako naman ang umayaw sa kanya.. basta, magulo ako! Madaling magkacrush, madali ring ma-fall out of crush.. hehe.. konting tiis nlang, lilipas dn ang valentine’s day.. hindi ko na iisipin na nag-iisa ako.. I have my friends naman eh (wink wink).. sheeeet, kaya nga ayoko kong manood ng mga mushy na movies eh.. mas gusto ko na ung action-packed o kaya horror, kc kung lovestory un, eh mafrufrustrate lang ako noh.. sabi nga nung isa friend ko na kabebreak lang nila ng bf niya, tuwing may nakikita cyang mga couples, sasabihin niya, “HMMMP, MAGHIHIWALAY DIN YAN!” haha bitter! Haaaay, pagod na ko sa kakahintay, pero sympre, wla naman ako magagawa jan.. I guess I just have to focus my attention on some other things, more important ones.. Ayyy, oo nga.. Magfu-full acad mode nalang ako.. Nga pla, gagradweyt nako next year…. Oohhh myyy golaaaaaaay!!!